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I post a blog of daily devotions that are my prayer journals based on scripture.

Disquieted Soul

Dear God, my soul is disquieted this morning. It’s over the LGTBQ+ issue and your feelings about it. But I have to tell you, even now as I sit here in your presence and talk to you about this, I can feel the disquietedness dripping away. I can feel your peace rising up in me.

It started this morning with a video I was watching by two Christian men talking about a conference a Christian mega church did largely for parents and pastors knowing how to respond to LGTBQ+ children/youth. I didn’t so much disagree with them in principle as I wondered how I should feel about my family, friends, and others in my sphere of influence who identify in some non-traditional way. I also wonder one key question. Why? There are reasons for your laws. There are reasons you want us to avoid drunkeness, murder, gluttony, lying, stealing, etc. There is harm for us in these things.

Then I ask myself, how many of those who are hyper-focused on this issue are obese, look at pornography, lie regularly, etc. And what about me? What is the unconfessed sin in my life that I’m not aware of because I don’t think it’s a sin. I’ve had a vasectomy. Some Christians would call that sin. Do you call it sin? Is it something on the f*** you list you have for me that, thankfully, you cannot see because of Jesus’s blood?

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, I think all of us have sin in our lives that we do not recognize as sin. The obese Christian (and I’m not too thin, so I’ll throw myself in this category) who gives in to gluttony. The alcoholic Christian who continues to drink to excess. I’m not here to label what is sin and what isn’t. I’m too ignorant to know. But I do know that you want your best for me, and I can only figure out what that is through moments like this. I can only figure it out as I work out my faith with fear and trembling (Philippians 2:12-13). My goal for any friend/family member, whether they be straight, LGTBQ+, gluttonous, an adulterer, a liar, a thief, etc., is that we would all take you seriously, accept the grace Jesus provides through his amazing sacrifice and the power exhibited in him as part of my Triune God, and then work to cultivate our hearts to clear the rocks and the thorns (Matthew 13:1-23) so that we can provide you good soil in which you can grow and exhibit your fruits in our lives.

I pray all of this under your authority and grace,

Amen

 

Weeding my Soil

Dear God, I was working on the Sunday school lesson I’m going to teach this weekend this morning, and It occurred to me (Holy Spirit, is that you?) that I haven’t prayed about the lesson this morning. I haven’t brought myself before you, submitted myself to you, cleansed my heart of the cares of this world and the lure of wealth (Matthew 13:22), and just worshipped you. I’ve been trying to listen to you all week in terms of the topic for the Sunday school lesson and where you might have me go with this class for whom I am substituting, and I think I have some good direction. But as I sat here this morning, I realized I am trying to put this together with my own “wisdom” and “intellect.” That’s so foolish and stupid. I am nothing, and I know nothing without you. If I try to do this without you and if it goes well then my temptation will be to take the credit for it. But Holy Spirit, I need you this morning. I need to attach my branch to your vine. I need to confess to you that I have sinned and I continue to sin. In what I have done and what I have failed to do. I need the mercy afforded to me by the generous–well, generous isn’t even a big enough word–sacrifice of Jesus. It’s the only way I can be here right now praying to you. The list of things the God of the universe, my Father, His Son, and the Holy Spirit, is long and growing every day. But the miracle is that you cannot see my list because of Jesus. So I sit here now, doing what I can to connect with you and to allow your Spirit to grow within me. To allow you to grow within me.

I have these different songs going in my head right now. A hymn: “Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in his wonderful face. And the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of his glory and grace.” Then there’s “Nobody” by Casting Crowns: “I’m just a nobody trying to tell everybody all about somebody who saved my soul. Ever since you rescued me, you gave my heart a song to sing. I’m living for the world to see nobody but Jesus.” These are my songs to you this morning. I want to turn my eyes upon you and have that amazing experience of the things of earth growing strangely dim. I want to just be nobody telling the world about the somebody who saved my soul.

I offer this to you through your mercy,

Amen

 
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Posted by on October 4, 2023 in Miscellaneous, Musings and Stories

 

Parable of the Unforgiving Servant (Matthew 18:23-35)

23 “Therefore, the Kingdom of Heaven can be compared to a king who decided to bring his accounts up to date with servants who had borrowed money from him. 24 In the process, one of his debtors was brought in who owed him millions of dollars. 25 He couldn’t pay, so his master ordered that he be sold—along with his wife, his children, and everything he owned—to pay the debt.

26 “But the man fell down before his master and begged him, ‘Please, be patient with me, and I will pay it all.’ 27 Then his master was filled with pity for him, and he released him and forgave his debt.

28 “But when the man left the king, he went to a fellow servant who owed him a few thousand dollars. He grabbed him by the throat and demanded instant payment.

29 “His fellow servant fell down before him and begged for a little more time. ‘Be patient with me, and I will pay it,’ he pleaded. 30 But his creditor wouldn’t wait. He had the man arrested and put in prison until the debt could be paid in full.

31 “When some of the other servants saw this, they were very upset. They went to the king and told him everything that had happened. 32 Then the king called in the man he had forgiven and said, ‘You evil servant! I forgave you that tremendous debt because you pleaded with me. 33 Shouldn’t you have mercy on your fellow servant, just as I had mercy on you?’ 34 Then the angry king sent the man to prison to be tortured until he had paid his entire debt.

35 “That’s what my heavenly Father will do to you if you refuse to forgive your brothers and sisters from your heart.”

Matthew 18:23-35

Dear God, my temptation is to focus on the unforgiveness of the servant, but this is about learning more about what this parable tells me about you than about the person with unforgiveness in their heart. It’s more about what do I see in you than what do I see in me. So what decisions do I see you making in this story?

  • There will be a day when my account has to be settled with you.
  • You are willing to extend me mercy out of your pure compassion for me.
  • You care about my heart and what kind of compassion I am willing to show others.
  • It is possible for me to evoke your wrath against me.

One thing that becomes clear as I go through these parables is that you are not to be taken lightly (it seems like there’s a better phrase that I just can’t come up with right now). You are not to be mocked (that’s the phrase). You are not to be disrespected. Jesus makes it very clear that there is a limit to your mercy. You will throw the weeds in the fire. You will separate us from yourself. Frankly, I like to think that there is no limit to your grace and that Jesus’s sacrifice gives all of us a “Get out of Jail Free Card.” But that is not the picture Jesus paints at all. Is there some squishiness around the edges of your law? Probably. But anyone who openly mocks you is probably not in good shape eternally.

My wife played something for me yesterday with a priest talking about Catholic theology around loving you. During the talk, he used an example of a woman who had said (paraphrasing), “Even if I saw God Himself in the east, as high as Mount Everest, I would not serve him.” It made me think of Milton in Paradise Lost quoting Satan saying, “It is better to reign in hell than serve in heaven.” Some people just feel that way. They are incapable of coming to the end of themselves. And when we come to the end of ourselves and start to climb the ladder of faith and getting refined by you, we find mercy for others, even in extreme circumstances, becomes easier because we become more like you. It doesn’t mean we don’t put boundaries on those relationships that are harmful, but it does mean we don’t have to carry around bitterness and our right to bitterness in our heart.

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, walk with me this morning. Walk with me in mercy. Walk with me in joy. Walk with me in peace. I sang this song while I was in the shower this morning by Keith Green that I want to close with here: “Oh, Lord, you’re beautiful! Your face is all I seek. For when your eyes are on this child your grace abounds to me.”

I pray all of this under the grace of Jesus,

Amen

 

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Parable of the Lost Sheep (Matthew 18:1-14)

18 About that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Who is greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven?”

Jesus called a little child to him and put the child among them. Then he said, “I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven. So anyone who becomes as humble as this little child is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven.

“And anyone who welcomes a little child like this on my behalf is welcoming me. But if you cause one of these little ones who trusts in me to fall into sin, it would be better for you to have a large millstone tied around your neck and be drowned in the depths of the sea.

“What sorrow awaits the world, because it tempts people to sin. Temptations are inevitable, but what sorrow awaits the person who does the tempting. So if your hand or foot causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It’s better to enter eternal life with only one hand or one foot than to be thrown into eternal fire with both of your hands and feet. And if your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It’s better to enter eternal life with only one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into the fire of hell.

10 “Beware that you don’t look down on any of these little ones. For I tell you that in heaven their angels are always in the presence of my heavenly Father.

12 “If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them wanders away, what will he do? Won’t he leave the ninety-nine others on the hills and go out to search for the one that is lost? 13 And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he will rejoice over it more than over the ninety-nine that didn’t wander away! 14 In the same way, it is not my heavenly Father’s will that even one of these little ones should perish.

Matthew 18:1-14

Dear God, I was once one of the little ones. I was once that humble child. Am I humble now? Am I making myself like that child now?

Once again, this includes some hard teaching from Jesus about being separated from you. It’s always a good reminder that you are not to be mocked. You are holy, righteous, just, and loving. You get frustrated with us and angry with us as well. A holy anger. But you also “go out and search” for us when we are lost. If I am going through these parables so that I can know you better, then I need to understand this about you. All of this about you.

I have to admit that I don’t like the idea of you being so harsh for those who don’t believe or become like a child because there are some people I love dearly who have not accepted your call to love you and build a relationship with you. That scares me. It also scares me that I am part of your plan A for searching for them. I am in the search party you are using to find those who are lost. Frankly, I don’t think I’m a very good searcher.

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, open my eyes so I can see how to better search. Well, first, help me to humble myself into this childlike state Jesus is describing here. Help me to embrace it as your child. And then help me to take it and bring others into faith with you. Into discipleship. Into relationship. For their sake, and for your glory, oh Lord!

I pray this through the grace, life, blood, death, and resurrection of Jesus,

Amen

 

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Genesis 12:10-16

10 At that time a severe famine struck the land of Canaan, forcing Abram to go down to Egypt, where he lived as a foreigner. 11 As he was approaching the border of Egypt, Abram said to his wife, Sarai, “Look, you are a very beautiful woman. 12 When the Egyptians see you, they will say, ‘This is his wife. Let’s kill him; then we can have her!’ 13 So please tell them you are my sister. Then they will spare my life and treat me well because of their interest in you.”

14 And sure enough, when Abram arrived in Egypt, everyone noticed Sarai’s beauty. 15 When the palace officials saw her, they sang her praises to Pharaoh, their king, and Sarai was taken into his palace. 16 Then Pharaoh gave Abram many gifts because of her—sheep, goats, cattle, male and female donkeys, male and female servants, and camels.

Genesis 12:10-16

Dear God, this is such a hard story if we stop and spend time with it. It’s easy to kind of read past, but it’s a hard story. First, you have Sarai being offered as a sacrifice by Abram so that his life might be saved. In a relationship where Abram should be her protector, he made her his protector. I cannot imagine what this must have been like for her from a trauma standpoint. It’s tragic.

Then there are the male and female servants that had no agency in the situation. They were given in exchange for this one woman to go to Pharoah. Later we will learn about an Egyptian servant of Abram’s named Hagar. Could this be how she came to be in their possession? All of this so that a man could save his own life at the expense of others.

So instead of me sitting here wondering about how Abram could possibly do this and judging him for it, I need to ask myself if I do this with my wife and children in any way. Have I put my own selfishness above them? I think at least one of my children would accuse me of putting my marriage to their mother before them. I’ve thought about it a lot, and I don’t think I agree, but it’s certainly how they feel. Is there any truth to it? Do I do anything to leave my wife vulnerable and at-risk? Am I the husband you need me to be for her? That she feels like is there to meet the needs she has for love, security, and encouragement?

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, I really want to carry you into this day with me. Walk with me with my staff. Walk with me with our volunteer. Walk with me with our donors. Walk with me with our patients. Walk with me with my wife. Oh, Lord, walk with me today. Make me the man you need me to be.

I pray this through Jesus’s name, life, death, and resurrection,

Amen

 
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Posted by on September 26, 2023 in Genesis, Uncategorized

 

Parable of the Heart of Man (Matthew 15:1-20, Mark 7:1-23)

15 Some Pharisees and teachers of religious law now arrived from Jerusalem to see Jesus. They asked him, “Why do your disciples disobey our age-old tradition? For they ignore our tradition of ceremonial hand washing before they eat.”

Jesus replied, “And why do you, by your traditions, violate the direct commandments of God? For instance, God says, ‘Honor your father and mother,’ and ‘Anyone who speaks disrespectfully of father or mother must be put to death.’ But you say it is all right for people to say to their parents, ‘Sorry, I can’t help you. For I have vowed to give to God what I would have given to you.’ In this way, you say they don’t need to honor their parents. And so you cancel the word of God for the sake of your own tradition. You hypocrites! Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you, for he wrote,

‘These people honor me with their lips,
    but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship is a farce,
    for they teach man-made ideas as commands from God.’”

10 Then Jesus called to the crowd to come and hear. “Listen,” he said, “and try to understand. 11 It’s not what goes into your mouth that defiles you; you are defiled by the words that come out of your mouth.”

12 Then the disciples came to him and asked, “Do you realize you offended the Pharisees by what you just said?”

13 Jesus replied, “Every plant not planted by my heavenly Father will be uprooted, 14 so ignore them. They are blind guides leading the blind, and if one blind person guides another, they will both fall into a ditch.”

15 Then Peter said to Jesus, “Explain to us the parable that says people aren’t defiled by what they eat.”

16 “Don’t you understand yet?” Jesus asked. 17 “Anything you eat passes through the stomach and then goes into the sewer. 18 But the words you speak come from the heart—that’s what defiles you. 19 For from the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, all sexual immorality, theft, lying, and slander. 20 These are what defile you. Eating with unwashed hands will never defile you.”

Matthew 15:1-20

One day some Pharisees and teachers of religious law arrived from Jerusalem to see Jesus. They noticed that some of his disciples failed to follow the Jewish ritual of hand washing before eating. (The Jews, especially the Pharisees, do not eat until they have poured water over their cupped hands,[a] as required by their ancient traditions. Similarly, they don’t eat anything from the market until they immerse their hands in water. This is but one of many traditions they have clung to—such as their ceremonial washing of cups, pitchers, and kettles.)

So the Pharisees and teachers of religious law asked him, “Why don’t your disciples follow our age-old tradition? They eat without first performing the hand-washing ceremony.”

Jesus replied, “You hypocrites! Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you, for he wrote,

‘These people honor me with their lips,
    but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship is a farce,
    for they teach man-made ideas as commands from God.’

For you ignore God’s law and substitute your own tradition.”

Then he said, “You skillfully sidestep God’s law in order to hold on to your own tradition. 10 For instance, Moses gave you this law from God: ‘Honor your father and mother,’ and ‘Anyone who speaks disrespectfully of father or mother must be put to death.’ 11 But you say it is all right for people to say to their parents, ‘Sorry, I can’t help you. For I have vowed to give to God what I would have given to you.’ 12 In this way, you let them disregard their needy parents. 13 And so you cancel the word of God in order to hand down your own tradition. And this is only one example among many others.”

14 Then Jesus called to the crowd to come and hear. “All of you listen,” he said, “and try to understand. 15 It’s not what goes into your body that defiles you; you are defiled by what comes from your heart.”

17 Then Jesus went into a house to get away from the crowd, and his disciples asked him what he meant by the parable he had just used. 18 “Don’t you understand either?” he asked. “Can’t you see that the food you put into your body cannot defile you? 19 Food doesn’t go into your heart, but only passes through the stomach and then goes into the sewer.” (By saying this, he declared that every kind of food is acceptable in God’s eyes.)

20 And then he added, “It is what comes from inside that defiles you. 21 For from within, out of a person’s heart, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, 22 adultery, greed, wickedness, deceit, lustful desires, envy, slander, pride, and foolishness. 23 All these vile things come from within; they are what defile you.”

Mark 7:1-23

Dear God, I was talking yesterday with an old friend and his wife (a very Godly couple who loves you so much, and whom I admire!) about the mistakes in our theology and biblical knowledge. In what we think we know about you. Our hearts justify errant thinking because we are often selfish and hypocritical. And sometimes we are just the victims of bad teaching that has been handed down generation to generation. There are just so many things about you that I do not know, and so many more that I think I know that are wrong. The example I used yesterday in our discussion was where Jesus was born. I don’t know when this tradition started to be taught, but I have always been taught he was born in a stable/barn/cave where they kept animals–some sort of a livestock area. I’ve also always been given the impression that Mary had Jesus as they rode into town (with her riding a donkey) and they couldn’t find a hotel room (this mistake is probably the reason it was so easy to come up with the “barn” part of the story. So why am I saying this is incorrect? Because in Luke 2:4-8 (NASB 1995 translation) it says, “Joseph also went up from Galilee, from the city of Nazareth, to Judea, to the city of David which is called Bethlehem, because he was of the house and family of David, in order to register along with Mary, who was engaged to him, and was with child. While they were there, the days were completed for her to give birth. And she gave birth to her firstborn son; and she wrapped Him in cloths, and laid Him in a [d]manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.” [the footnote before “manger” says, “or feeding trough”] So it occurred to me one day that it doesn’t describe Mary riding a donkey or her coming into town fresh off the long journey and needing a quick hotel room to give birth. No, what it says is, “While they were there, the days were completed for her to give birth.” So how long had they been there? A week? A month? Three months? Did they get there, do their registration duty, and then decide they needed to stay because she was too far along to travel? The text doesn’t say, but what it does indicate is that they had been there for more than just a night or two. So if they were there for a certain period of time, where were they staying? In a tent in a field? Were there camps that had been set up for people like them? If so, maybe, just maybe, she had the baby in the tent, and then when they needed a makeshift crib, Joseph was able to go get a food trough from a local stable/barn/cave and use it for Jesus.

I really got off on a tangent there, but it goes with these passages from Matthew and Mark about the “heart of man” because everyone involved was a victim of errant teaching. And I don’t necessarily blame the Pharisees who were hassling Jesus. I honestly can’t say that I would have done any differently if I were them. They were taught how to be Pharisees by those that came before them, and they were passing it down. I’m sure I’ve done the same thing in my life. I’m sure I do it every day. There might even be part of what I’m doing right now that is doing the same thing.

As I try to take the lesson from the passage, I think the core of it is the reference Jesus gave from Isaiah 29:13, which both Matthew and Mark (Peter?) recorded:

‘These people honor me with their lips,
    but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship is a farce,
    for they teach man-made ideas as commands from God.’

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, I really do not want my heart to be far from you. That’s what this is about. I don’t want my worship to be a farce. I don’t want to just teach man-made ideas as commands from you. No, I want to be completely yours. I want to be able to hear your still small voice speak to me. I want to learn what you want me to learn, and then pass on what you are teaching me to others so that they might be drawn closer to you. make me your vessel, oh Lord. Break me, melt me, mold me, fill me, and then disperse me to your people.

I pray all of this in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit,

Amen

P.S. I couldn’t help but notice that both of these versions end with Jesus describing what Paul describe in Galatians 5 and what I referenced yesterday as the deeds of the heart/desires of sinful nature. And again, Jesus’s lead-off hitter is sexual immorality. Hmm. I probably should look into this more.

 

Parable of the Net (Matthew 13:47-52)

47 “Again, the Kingdom of Heaven is like a fishing net that was thrown into the water and caught fish of every kind. 48 When the net was full, they dragged it up onto the shore, sat down, and sorted the good fish into crates, but threw the bad ones away. 49 That is the way it will be at the end of the world. The angels will come and separate the wicked people from the righteous, 50 throwing the wicked into the fiery furnace, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth. 51 Do you understand all these things?”

“Yes,” they said, “we do.”

52 Then he added, “Every teacher of religious law who becomes a disciple in the Kingdom of Heaven is like a homeowner who brings from his storeroom new gems of truth as well as old.”

Matthew 13:47-52

Dear God, this is such a hard word. Where is the line? What is the line? Is there an exact line? The line I’m referring to is the opportunity to be with you vs. apart from you in anguish.

Right now, there is this earthly world where your presence moves simultaneously with Satan. You are here moving among your people. Your Holy Spirit is here. But Satan roams this world too. He and his demons have one job–to hurt your beloved creation. To hurt you by hurting us. To separate us from you.

But then one day there will be a great divide. At the harvest, we will all go to places that you will not share with Satan, either he in your realm or you in his. His realm will be all evil. It will be all the opposite of the fruits of the Spirit Paul describes in Galatians 5:22-23. It will be Galatians 5:19-21

19 When you follow the desires of your sinful nature, the results are very clear: sexual immorality, impurity, lustful pleasures, 20 idolatry, sorcery, hostility, quarreling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish ambition, dissension, division, 21 envy, drunkenness, wild parties, and other sins like these. Let me tell you again, as I have before, that anyone living that sort of life will not inherit the Kingdom of God.

I was telling someone just this week that it’s interesting that just about any time Paul has a list of things people are doing wrong, his leadoff hitter is “sexual immorality.” We like to think that this is a new phenomenon that has come upon us in the last 60 years (since the sexual revolution in the 1960s in the U.S.), but this is as old as Genesis. But that’s not the point.

The point is that it disturbs me that there will be this chunk of people separated from you–some of whom I know well and love very much. I honestly don’t know which ones they are. I don’t know if you make allowances for life circumstances and trauma experienced. I don’t know just how far Jesus’s blood extends to the world. Even the worst person I can think of and that all of us use as our example as the ultimate bad person, Adolf Hitler. Was there some trauma in his childhood that pushed him onto that trajectory? Is there any mercy from you for him?

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, as Abraham asked you to save as many as you could by pleading for Sodom and Gomorrah, asking if there were just a few faithful to you would you save the cities, I am asking that, on an individual level, if there is good in their hearts, even thought they might now call you God, if there is any good in their hearts, will you count it as righteousness to them. And show me explicitly how you would have me reach out and love those who need you in their lives.

I pray all of this completely submitted to your authority and love,

Amen

P.S. I kept verse 52 with this because I really liked how Jesus described the teacher of the religious law who becomes a disciple in the kingdom of heaven. I like the adding new gems of truth to the old. You have given us beautiful gems to live out. Help us to live it for you.

 

1 Corinthians 10:1-15

10 I don’t want you to forget, dear brothers and sisters, about our ancestors in the wilderness long ago. All of them were guided by a cloud that moved ahead of them, and all of them walked through the sea on dry ground. In the cloud and in the sea, all of them were baptized as followers of Moses. All of them ate the same spiritual food, and all of them drank the same spiritual water. For they drank from the spiritual rock that traveled with them, and that rock was Christ. Yet God was not pleased with most of them, and their bodies were scattered in the wilderness.

These things happened as a warning to us, so that we would not crave evil things as they did, or worship idols as some of them did. As the Scriptures say, “The people celebrated with feasting and drinking, and they indulged in pagan revelry.” And we must not engage in sexual immorality as some of them did, causing 23,000 of them to die in one day.

Nor should we put Christ to the test, as some of them did and then died from snakebites. 10 And don’t grumble as some of them did, and then were destroyed by the angel of death. 11 These things happened to them as examples for us. They were written down to warn us who live at the end of the age.

12 If you think you are standing strong, be careful not to fall. 13 The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.

14 So, my dear friends, flee from the worship of idols. 15 You are reasonable people. Decide for yourselves if what I am saying is true.

1 Corinthians 10:1-15

Dear God, I am teaching a Sunday school class this week and I want to pass one something that you have been teaching me over the last three years: identifying and getting rid of my idols.

In modern America, I don’t have little statues I worship. We’ve reasoned ourselves beyond that. Some people have even “reasoned” themselves beyond you. But what even those people don’t realize is that they have reasoned themselves into something that they will look to for their fruits of the Spirit. Especially for their peace.

Maybe I should start there. Maybe I should start with what it is that makes worshipping you and loving you, even in the midst of trials, so amazing. When I go to Galatians 5:22 and consider the fruits of the Spirit, I think that peace is that special thing we are looking for in our lives. Peace within ourselves. A stillness in our souls.

I think the heart of the message is in verses 7-10:

“Do not be idolaters, as some of [the Israelites who left Egypt in Exodus] were; as it is written: ‘The people sat down to eat and drink and got up to indulge in pagan revelry.’ We should not commit sexual immortality, as some of them did–and in one day twenty-three thousand of them died. We should not test the Lord, as some of them did–and were killed by snakes. And do not grumble, as some of them did–and were killed by the destroying angel,”

This paragraph makes me wonder why I do this. What is it that drives me to idols? What is they offer me that I should only and can only find from you? I think the answer is peace. Yes, by worshipping you the fruits of the Spirit will naturally grow in me and out of me: love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, kindness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Those are amazing things for anyone to exhibit and give to others, but all but two of them are outward-focused. Joy and peace are part of my internal make-up. They are the well that is in me. And when I am truly in relationship with you, your joy and a peace that passes all understanding is what grows in me.

So what if all temptation is designed by Satan to pull me into seeking joy and peace apart from you? Could this possibly be the center of any sin that tempts me? If I want to steal something or take something that isn’t mine, do I think the having of that thing will bring me some level of peace or joy? If I am tempted to kill someone, do I think the elimination of that person will bring me peace or joy? If I commit adultery or even look at pornography, is there something in my brain telling me to find joy there? The same goes for just about any other sin. Slander/gossiping. Lying. Unforgiveness. Even skipping the Sabbath.

When I was growing up in Baptist and Fellowship of Christian Athletes circles, one thing they used to tell us about was our “God hole.” I would hear people say that we all have a “God hole” in our hearts that nothing else can fill. And our temptation is to look at the world and try to find things in the world to fill that “God hole,” but nothing ever fills it. Only you do. As I sit here and think about this now, and as I’ve thought about this topic all week, I wonder if that God hole isn’t simply the joy and peace that only comes from you because you are the only thing in all of the universe that is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Making you my God and rejecting these temptations fills my “God hole” (i.e., gives me peace and joy) completely and can keep it filled regardless of my life circumstances.

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, as I pray this morning, it feels like you are teaching me that temptation is all about directing me to one idol or another and leading me away from you and looking for alternative things to put in my “God hole.” It’s amazing how effective the temptation is. I wonder why that is. But let me just start my repenting for my idolatrous heart. I am sorry I look to anything else at any time of day or day of the week that will give me something only you can give. I am sorry I try to make myself and my pleasure my god. Thank you for your love. Thank you for your sacrifice. Thank you for your presence.

I pray all of this in the name of the one true God, my Father, my Jesus, and my Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Parable of the Hidden Treasure & Pearl of Great Price (Matthew 13:44-46)

44 “The Kingdom of Heaven is like a treasure that a man discovered hidden in a field. In his excitement, he hid it again and sold everything he owned to get enough money to buy the field.

45 “Again, the Kingdom of Heaven is like a merchant on the lookout for choice pearls. 46 When he discovered a pearl of great value, he sold everything he owned and bought it!

Matthew 13:44-46

Dear God, I think one question to ask myself that I don’t think I’ve ever asked before is, “What have I not sold that is keeping me from having all of you?” What are the things in my life that I hold on to?

  • Possessions
  • Relationships
  • Grudges
  • Fears
  • Idols
  • Selfishness

All of those things, and more, come between you and me. I have a comfortable life. Is my protection of any of it coming between me and you? I have relationships that I hold on to tighter than I should. Do those keep me from knowing you? Grudges and unforgiveness. Fears. Selfishness. And all of the idols I look to to help assuage my discomfort. All of these things come between you and me. They keep me from owning the amazing treasure you offer me.

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, if I am here to know you, then one thing to know about you is that you are not to be mocked. You are my God. Help me to gradually figure out what it means to turn loose of each of these things so that I am completely yours and will know you better and better. I love you, Lord. And I life my voice to worship you. Oh, my soul, rejoice! Take joy my King in what you hear. Let it be a sweet, sweet sound in your ear.

I pray this through Jesus’s name,

Amen

 

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The Beatitudes (Matthew 5:3-12)

“God blesses those who are poor [in spirit] and realize their need for him,
    for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.
God blesses those who mourn,
    for they will be comforted.
God blesses those who are humble,
    for they will inherit the whole earth.
God blesses those who hunger and thirst for justice [righteousness],
    for they will be satisfied.
God blesses those who are merciful,
    for they will be shown mercy.
God blesses those whose hearts are pure,
    for they will see God.
God blesses those who work for peace,
    for they will be called the children of God.
10 God blesses those who are persecuted for doing right,
    for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.

11 “God blesses you when people mock you and persecute you and lie about you and say all sorts of evil things against you because you are my followers. 12 Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven. And remember, the ancient prophets were persecuted in the same way.

Matthew 5:3-12

Dear God, I’ve been doing this series on the parables Jesus told because a lot of them describe you and your character. They are your autobiography. But I was just at a meeting with other couples from our church group, and one of the women made this beautiful description of how the beatitudes from the “Sermon on the Mount” in Matthew 5 take everything we would strive for and turns them on their head. For example, she talked about someone she loves who is mourning the loss of her mother. My friend was thinking that she really should be over this by now. But then she said someone mentioned this concept of the beatitudes to her and she thought, “Yeah. It doesn’t say, ‘Blessed are those who grieve quickly and efficiently.'” She went on to describe other things and I was completely taken aback by it. So I decided to spend a little time with these things this afternoon and see if you have anything for me.

Here is the list of the things Jesus said you are wanting to help me with:

  • Being poor in spirit
  • Mourning
  • Hungering for justice/righteousness
  • Mercy
  • Pure heart
  • Working for peace
  • Experiencing persecution for doing what is right
  • Suffering for your sake

So what is the opposite of these things? If I am the opposite of these things, does it bring out your indifference towards me? If I am the opposite, can you not help me because I don’t have an opening in my heart for you? Here is a list of things that I think will put a barrier between you and me.

  • Having a spirit of completion in myself. I have it all together. I’ve got this.
  • Making myself numb to mourning because I don’t have time for something that will bring me down, and I don’t want to expose myself to pain.
  • Being arrogant about who I am and what the world and those around me owe me. I am never wrong. I’ve never found a need to ask you or anyone else for forgiveness.
  • Hiding injustice and unrighteousness for the times when it suits my agenda. If there is an injustice that will benefit me, then I will look the other way.
  • Withholding mercy because I have been wronged and that wrong must be punished.
  • Keeping parts of my heart away from you and just for me. Just to satisfy my selfishness.
  • Working to create disturbance between people so that I can have power in those relationships and manipulate them for my purposes.
  • Bowing to the path of least resistance, even if it compromises your values living through me in order to avoid persecution.

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, I do NOT want to be that second person. I don’t want to be any of those things, but I know my heart will sink into that very quickly if I allow it. I’ve done it before. I’ve done it today. But now, as I sit here, there is a song in my heart from Psalm 103: “Bless the Lord, oh my soul. Bless His holy name, all the earth. Bless the Lord, oh my soul. You are worthy, you are worthy.” So bless my heart, soul, mind, and body. Help me to be the type of person you are anxious to bless, comfort, strengthen, and hold close. Help me to absorb you so that the fruits of your Spirit might grow in my heart.

I pray all of this through the amazing mercy given to me through your son, my God, Jesus,

Amen

 

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