Kaph
81 I am worn out waiting for your rescue,
but I have put my hope in your word.
82 My eyes are straining to see your promises come true.
When will you comfort me?
83 I am shriveled like a wineskin in the smoke,
but I have not forgotten to obey your decrees.
84 How long must I wait?
When will you punish those who persecute me?
85 These arrogant people who hate your instructions
have dug deep pits to trap me.
86 All your commands are trustworthy.
Protect me from those who hunt me down without cause.
87 They almost finished me off,
but I refused to abandon your commandments.
88 In your unfailing love, spare my life;
then I can continue to obey your laws.
Psalm 119:81-88
Dear God, wow! Halfway through this psalm it shifts tone and goes from a psalm of orientation to a psalm of disorientation. Was this the plan all along. I’ve been critical of this psalmist for not having suffered, but maybe he was saving it. One of the interesting things about taking this thing slowly like this is that it helps me to notice this trend. When I’m done with this psalm in several days, one thing I’ll do is look at the biblical commentary I use to see what scholars think of this psalm.
With that said, let’s look at these verses one by one.
- 81 I am worn out waiting for your rescue, but I have put my hope in your word. – There is a podcast I listen to that has an intro about making sense during confusing times. The funny thing is, I think everyone thinks their times are either the most confusing or at least particularly confusing. This came to mind because I wonder at what level this psalmist needed rescued. Was it life or death or simply a lament? Was it personal rescue or societal rescue? There are times when I am stressed and times when I am in mourning. I get anxious sometimes. And if I were in Gaza or Ukraine right now, I would be feeling the depths of needing your rescue. Father, please rescue those who call on your name, and have mercy even on those who do not. Use all of this pain to draw us closer to you in some way. Don’t let it be wasted. Make it count.
- 82 My eyes are straining to see your promises come true. When will you comfort me? – I have certainly needed comforted. There are still pains in my life for which I need comfort. Help me to take the comfort your give me and give it to others who need comfort as well. I don’t want just comfort for me. I want to know comfort so I can give comfort. Help me to give comfort.
- 83 I am shriveled like a wineskin in the smoke, but I have not forgotten to obey your decrees. – I’ve felt this way before. I’m grateful to not feel it now. I’ve followed you blindly in the midst of pain but not forsaken you. But I do remember the 18-month period when I was in so much pain I didn’t pray like this. I prayed to you silently, but not really meditating on your Word like I am doing now. Thank you for carrying me through that time and teaching me as well.
- 84 How long must I wait? When will you punish those who persecute me? – Again, how personal is this persecution for the psalmist? Is it something that a few people are persecuting him or is he in exile and persecuted as a Jew? And how does your “punishment”–even for the evil–work? Somehow, I don’t think any of us really understand that.
- 85 These arrogant people who hate your instructions have dug deep pits to trap me. – So this seems pretty personal. Isn’t it interesting that he wrote this and then published it for others to know and sing? Again, he goes back to his theme of your commands and instructions. Some obey and try to follow and some hate and ignore. Help me to be someone who not only follows, but inspires others to follow as well. I’m thinking of one man, in particular, who needs to know your instructions right now.
- 86 All your commands are trustworthy. Protect me from those who hunt me down without cause. – Again, this is very personal. The phrase “hunt me down” is interesting. I don’t feel hunted by people right now, but I know there are others who do. God, help us all.
- 87 They almost finished me off, but I refused to abandon your commandments. – There is obviously some pain in these words. Be glorified, Father, even in this pain all of us feel.
- 88 In your unfailing love, spare my life; then I can continue to obey your laws. – Quoting Keith Green: “Make my life a prayer to you. I want to do what you want me to. No empty words and no white lies. No token prayers. No compromise. I wanna share the light you gave through your Son you sent to save us from ourselves and our despair. It comforts me to know you’re really there.”
I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,
Amen
