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A Star Is Born (Bradley Cooper & Lady Gaga Edition) – The Story

Every once in a while I see a piece of art that moves me. It might be a song, a book, a painting, a musical, or a movie. I was a fool for years in thinking that the arts we’re not worthy of our philanthropic support. It took my daughter getting involved in theater when she was nine years old to show me that the arts are critical to human development.

I cannot explain why the latest version of a “A Star Is Born” featuring Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga touched me from the get-go. As soon as I ran across the trailer on YouTube, I knew I had to see it. And I hadn’t seen any of the previous iterations at the time (although I’ve since seen the Judy Garland version). I guess what I want to do with this series of blog posts is try to figure 1.) why this story keeps being retold, 2.) why this version, even from the trailer struck me so hard, and 3.) what are the lessons that Bradley Cooper wanted to teach all of us in his interpretation?

Before you read any further, you need to know that I’m not writing this for you. I’m writing it for myself. This is how I am processing what I’ve seen and why it has hit me in this way.

For this post, I’ll look at the overall story and what it is about it that keeps Hollywood coming back to retell it for a new generation (spoilers ahead). For the posts about why this version hit me so hard, and what lessons Cooper is trying to teach, you can click the links imbedded above.

First, I want to look at the year of release for the four versions.

  1. Original in 1937 featuring Janet Gaynor and Frederic March. Based on a male actor helping a female actress achieve stardom. No music involved.
  2. First remake in 1954 featuring Judy Garland and James Mason. Based on a male actor helping a female singer become a star in musicals. 17 years since the original.
  3. Second remake in 1976 featuring Barbara Streisand and Kris Kristofferson. Based on a male rockstar helping a female singer become a rockstar. 22 years since previous remake and 39 years once the original.
  4. Third remake in 2018 featuring Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper. Based on a male rockstar helping a female singer become a rockstar. 42 years since most previous remake and 81 years since the original.

The common themes for each one are that the male star has some form of a substance abuse problem. Whether it is alcohol or a combination of drugs and alcohol, the male lead has the best of intentions when it comes to helping the female, and they are successful in helping. But ultimately, the male is fatally flawed and ends up exhibiting their love for the woman by taking their own life in the end so that they won’t get in the way of the woman’s fame. (It should be noted that, from what I’ve heard because I never saw it, the 1976 version leaves it vague as to whether or not the male killed himself, but the first two are about as explicit as they probably could have been back in the 30s and 50s, and the 2018 version is very explicit).

Let me go through slowly and see what I can find that is similar between the versions.

  • The male lead’s addiction issues are shown right up front. In the two versions I’ve seen, before we even meet female lead we see both the struggle and how his handlers enable the behavior by trying to either protect them from making a fool of themselves or giving them what they want and not telling them no.
  • The female lead is shown as someone who is outrageously talented, but stuck at a nominal level of performing for others. She is also very insecure. The male lead happens upon them in a bit of a drunken/high stupor and instantly sees their talent. We presume they are attracted to her as well.
  • The male uses his influence to giver her the breaks she needs to break through and become a star. He also breathes confidence into the female lead
  • While the 1954 version made it clear that the male lead’s career was fading fast, the 2018 version showed an artist past his prime, but still getting work and enjoying some amount of fame. The common thing for both, however, is that the female’s career shoots past the male’s, and there is some amount of jealousy that comes to light. The level of the male’s intoxication seems to determine how much he lets the jealousy show and control his actions.
  • At some point, the machine that the male tries to introduce the female to takes over and the male starts to lose his influence on the process. The machinery of fame is NEVER shown positively. I wonder if this is both a message on the part of the filmmakers to the machine itself and a message to the audience that what we are seeing, and the fame that some aspire to attain is not real and it comes with a price. My wife commented after we just saw the 2018 version that it reminded her that everything we see in music is produced and controlled by an A&R person who is doing their best to manipulate us so that we will spend our money on what they are selling.
  • There comes a time when the male’s substance abuse gets in the way, culminating in a painful event that is embarrassing to the female and her career. It’s interesting that the female never really seems to start to struggle with substances in these tellings. The message does NOT appear to be that fame will lead to substance problems. The new “star” really adjusts to the fame part of her life pretty well and we aren’t left with much notion that it is costing her much of herself.
  • After a stint in rehab for the male (during which the female isn’t shown doing any of the work that a spouse or family member of an addict would have to do such as Al-Anon, support groups, one-on-one therapy, etc.) tries to be the man she needs him to be, but he doesn’t trust his sobriety. Nor does anyone else. The female’s manager tells her that he will ruin her career, and she decides to sacrifice her career because of her love for him.
  • The male ultimately decides that the most important thing is her career. As I think about it, this is probably the biggest unspoken fallacy in the story. He decides that her career is more important than his life, her love for him, or his love for her. The most important thing to him in his life, the thing that gave him meaning, was his fame. He had been successful in giving that to her and now he didn’t want to be the cause of her losing it. For Hollywood to keep making this movie, I wonder how many people there have come across this dilemma.

As I read back over this, I think I see a couple of things that I would think keep Hollywood coming back for more.

  1. The rags to riches, obscurity to stardom story. Nearly every child idolizes the TV, movie, or music stars, and the would love to be like them. American Idol is a great example of this. Even I would like to believe that I could sing in a way that others would want to hear it. I can’t and they don’t, but I’d love to be idolized in that way. Not only do we easily make idols of others and things instead of God, but in our hearts we would love to be idolized by others.
  2. We are intrigued by the suffering soul and his tragic tale. Either of these can be enough to make a movie, but to combine them into one story makes it irresistible.
  3. Everyone loves a love story. We all love the excitement of falling in love, those beginning stages of infatuation and attraction, and having someone else feel the same about us.
  4. Are there more important things than life and the struggles that come with it? Is there a hidden intimation here that for every star that rises one must fall? Maybe the story is telling us that there can only be so many stars–or maybe I’m reading too much into that. But this idea that he decided on her behalf that her career was more important than his life is sad and an indication of the lies that all of us hear.

Maybe that’s why this sits so hard with me. I didn’t know the story or that the male lead would take his own life by the end when I first saw the trailer for the 2018 version. I knew I wanted to see it when it came out in October so I took the opportunity to watch the 1954 version on Turner Classic Movies this summer. I was really surprised that the movie is actually a tragedy. Apparently, the makers of the 1976 version couldn’t handle that aspect of the story so the powers that be decided to make his death more vague and possibly an accidental result of his addiction.

In the end, I wonder how much this movie is a commentary on the mental illness that is behind suicide. I’ve never known anyone who took their own life who didn’t leave behind mountains of pain for others to experience. But in most instances, their mind is telling them that those people whom they are about to hurt in an unimaginable way will be better off without them. It’s a lie from hell, but I guess the reason this story keeps getting retold is because what the male lead and the female lead both go through are part of the human experience.

 

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Peter & John — Mark 14:17-19

In the evening Jesus arrived with the Twelve. As they were at the table eating, Jesus said, “I tell you the truth, one of you eating with me here will betray me.” Greatly distressed, each one asked in turn, “Am I the one?”
Mark 14:17-19

Dear God, I can relate to having no confidence in myself. These poor guys had no idea what was going on around them. They were in the “fog of war” as much as anyone has ever been. Of course, Jesus left the type of betrayal pretty vague so maybe some of them had considered doing things like just leaving. Especially after it had been such a crazy week. Maybe some of them had talked among themselves or with others outside of the group, questioning Jesus in some way. I can see where I might have done any of these things as one of these 12. I don’t think I ever would have sold him out, but abandonment in the midst of scary would certainly have crossed my mind.

Are there ways that I betray you now? Sure, I know there are ways in which I let you down and miss opportunities to do your will. I know that I sin and make mistakes. But do I betray you? Do I think about leaving my faith for a more self-indulgent life? Do I consider complaining about you and your plans to others? Do I simply forsake spending time with you in deference to doing what I want to do with my time?

Father, “am I the one?” I confess to you that I recognize my own potential to betray you on many levels. I am sorry. I’m sorry I’m so weak and flawed. I’m sorry I can be so selfish and insecure. Help me to recognize these moments in myself and become one step closer to being the man you want me to be.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on October 14, 2018 in Mark, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — Mark 13:1-4

As Jesus was leaving the Temple that day, one of his disciples said, “Teacher, look at these magnificent buildings! Look at the impressive stones in the walls.” Jesus replied, “Yes, look at these great buildings. But they will be completely demolished. Not one stone will be left on top of another!” Later, Jesus sat on the Mount of Olives across the valley from the Temple. Peter, James, John, and Andrew came to him privately and asked him, “Tell us, when will all this happen? What sign will show us that these things are about to be fulfilled?”
Mark 13:1-4

Dear God, this must have been such a weird week for them. A weird time, really. I can only imagine what their conversations were like among themselves. I would love to have heard what the four of them said to each other before they approached Jesus. I would imagine that they had to be wondering if it was about to happen that very week. They were trying to reconcile everything Jesus was telling them and turn it into a clear narrative.

It’s kind of like a movie trailer. That’s about how clear Jesus was being with them. I recently saw “A Star is Born,” and it really moved me. It was the trailer that first sold me on it. I went back and looked at it closely recently, trying to figure out what it was about it that attracted me and looking at how it compared to the actual movie. Basically, a good trailer will give you hints at what’s to come without giving you too much information. I believe that too much information about the future is not good forbid because it will alter how we live out our present. My dad told me one time that the point in prophecy is not so that we will know the future, but so when the future happens and the prophecy is fulfilled we will know that you are in control.

Father, help me to discern between the things I need to understand about the world and the things I can let go. Help me to not be fearful, but to always know that you are in control. Finally, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on October 12, 2018 in Mark, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — Mark 11:12-14,20-25

The next morning as they were leaving Bethany, Jesus was hungry. He noticed a fig tree in full leaf a little way off, so he went over to see if he could find any figs. But there were only leaves because it was too early in the season for fruit. Then Jesus said to the tree, “May no one ever eat your fruit again!” And the disciples heard him say it. The next morning as they passed by the fig tree he had cursed, the disciples noticed it had withered from the roots up. Peter remembered what Jesus had said to the tree on the previous day and exclaimed, “Look, Rabbi! The fig tree you cursed has withered and died!” Then Jesus said to the disciples, “Have faith in God. I tell you the truth, you can say to this mountain, ‘May you be lifted up and thrown into the sea,’ and it will happen. But you must really believe it will happen and have no doubt in your heart. I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you’ve received it, it will be yours. But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in heaven will forgive your sins, too.”
Mark 11:12-14,20-25

Dear God, in the spirit of looking at John and Peter specifically for this series, I want to look at this more from Peter’s perspective than Jesus’.

What must this week have been like? Jesus was on a bit of a roll here. He was cursing dig trees, turning over commercial tables in the temple, rocking people off in general. They had been hearing Jesus say that he was going to die this week. If I were them I’d have been thinking, “Sure, because you’re egging them on!”

So Peter is watching all of this and he is in wonder. Maybe he’s the first one to see the fig tree. Or maybe he’s the one to say it first, but he’s amazed. He points out to Jesus what happened. At that point, Jesus turns it into a lesson about the power we have as believers. A power I still don’t understand. At a minimum, I don’t think I pass the “but you must really believe it will happen and have not doubt in your heart” test.

Father, when it comes down to it, I confess that I don’t know how your plan is unfolding or where you are leading me. But I trust you. So give me the faith you know I need to have. Help me to believe in the power you need me to access to accomplish what you have for me to accomplish.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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A Star Is Born (Bradley Cooper & Lady Gaga Edition) – What Attracted Me?

Every once in a while I see a piece of art that moves me. It might be a song, a book, a painting, a musical, or a movie. I was a fool for years in thinking that the arts we’re not worthy of our philanthropic support. It took my daughter getting involved in theater when she was nine years old to show me that the arts are critical to human development.

I cannot explain why the latest version of a “A Star Is Born” featuring Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga touched me from the get-go. As soon as I ran across the trailer on YouTube, I knew I had to see it. And I hadn’t seen any of the previous iterations at the time (although I’ve since seen the Judy Garland version). I guess what I want to do with this series of blog posts is try to figure 1.) why this story keeps being retold, 2.) why this version, even from the trailer struck me so hard, and 3.) what are the lessons that Bradley Cooper wanted to teach all of us in his interpretation.

Before you read any further, you need to know that I’m not writing this for you. I’m writing it for myself. This is how I am processing what I’ve seen and why it has hit me in this way.

For this post, I’d like to focus on what it was about the trailer that struck such a nerve with me, before I even knew the story (spoilers ahead). If you’d like to read the other posts I’ve done about this movie, you can click the respective links imbedded above.

I think the easiest way to start this post is to start with the first trailer that was released. Here’s a link. The first time I saw the trailer, I didn’t know that this was “A Star is Born” and I didn’t know that the woman they were featuring was Lady Gaga. So I’m watching just the images and the music and it gives you a great sense of artistry, mixed with pain, mixed with believing in someone, mixed with talent, and mixed with love. Then you see “Bradley Cooper,” “Lady Gaga,” “A Star is Born.” I was already interested, but then I saw that I was going to get to see Lady Gaga in a whole new way and she was going to be part of telling me a story that I had heard of but didn’t know.

So let’s look at the trailer segment by segment:

  • It opens with Jackson (Jack) performing on stage and enjoying stardom (and he’s good). We find out during the movies that the song he’s singing is kind of his trademark song that he does at all of his concerts.
  • The opening montage of him singing shows his fame, but then it shows the drinking alone in the Tahoe after escaping a crowd. They intimate right up front that something isn’t right with this picture.
  • They give you a speech from Dave Chappelle (a speech that isn’t in the actual movie, by the way) that explicitly indicates that Jack’s life is getting out of control–presumably from the alcohol they just showed.
  • They show Jack walking through a doorway into what is presumably an AA meeting, and it dissolves into a similar shot of Ally walking through a curtain and out on stage. We are 40 seconds into the trailer before we meet her character.
  • When we meet Ally, the music changes and we shift to a song that we find out during the movie that she wrote. Then we hear Jack asking her more about her musical talent. “Do you write songs or anything?”
  • Ally’s answer changes the tone of the trailer. “I don’t sing my own songs…I just don’t feel comfortable…Almost every single person has told me they like the way I sounded, but they didn’t like the way I look.” Aww. That makes you feel bad for her. And her look in that moment is not ugly at all–it’s just not glamorous. But I liked her comfortable look. She looked very relatable. Jack’s reply: “I think. you’re beautiful.” Cue the musical line by Jack, “I’m fallin'”
  • “Hey!” “What?” “I just wanted to take another look at you.” The first time I saw this I thought it was just underscoring that he was trying to affirm her attractiveness and her worthiness of being a star. I found out after I watched the 1954 version with Judy Garland that this is a callback line that is in all four versions. A little Easter egg for those who have seen the previous movie(s).
  • Jack gets her up on stage to show the world her talent. “All you gotta do is trust me. That’s all you gotta do.” She does and that when we hear an unexpectedly world-class voice. Wow, she is good! Who is that?
  • We get another montage that plays under her singing. It’s a mixture of them falling in love, her experiencing luxury (private jet, etc.), and brief shots of Dave Chappelle and Sam Elliott.
  • That’s when the trailer reveals who we’ve been watching. Okay, I figured out Bradley Cooper, but that’s Lady Gaga?!? Wow! I instantly wanted to see a different side of this fantastically talented woman that didn’t have all of the theatricality that comes with her persona (although being a character in a movie is not real at all and possibly the definition of theatricality).
  • Then we start to see the pain in the montage. After her name we see her punch a picture frame, Sam Elliott hold Jack’s face. Jack punches Sam Elliott. This will not just be a feel-good story. There will be pain.
  • Then the big reveal. This is “A Star Is Born”! As I said, I’d never seen it, but I’d heard of it and, by now, I was all in.

So what was it that I wanted to see?

  1. It looked like the story would be told in a very soulful way. I’m into a good soulful drama.
  2. I like the idea of an insecure person discovering their talent and feeling good about themselves.
  3. It seemed that we would get to see the Jack character wrestle with his inner demons.
  4. I wanted to see Lady Gaga in a new way. It’s a little like seeing Robin Williams or Jim Carey in a drama. I love it when artists seemingly go from flash to substance. This felt like that’s what Lady Gaga was doing here, although I think she would probably argue that her music has a lot of substance–which I think it does. I guess the problem for me is that a lot of the substance of her music has been lost in the theatricality of her style.
  5. I wanted to see a movie telling a story that I’d heard of but never experienced. And this looked a lot better to me than the one that came out when I was six years old.

I’ve tried to think through whether or not this movie says anything about me. Is there anything in my personal experience that drew me to it? Well, I’ve known people who have substance abuse problems. I know that I’ve been very insecure and still can be. I know that I’ve needed people to believe in me in the past, and I’ve been able to play that role in others’ lives as well. I love my wife and I enjoy watching a good love story with her. And I worked in sales and marketing for a record label at one point, so I’ve seen just a little of that side of the world. So yes, I guess it spoke to me on a personal level more than I realized.

Did it change me? I don’t know that I’d say that it did, but the actual watching of the movie did live up to the trailer.

 

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Appropriate Vulnerability

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Dear God, what will you have for me today? Of what I heard yesterday at this retreat, my favorite part was when the guy telling his story mentioned the letters we all get from friends at Christmas talking about their perfect lives. As he mentioned it in a snide tone, everyone, including me, laughed. In fact, he probably got the biggest laugh of the weekend so far with that. There was truth there and we all knew it.

It left me wondering how to communicate truthfully with people while still respecting my family’s privacy. Is there a way to let my distant friends and family, those whom I don’t see but every few years, know that they are not alone? That, if nothing else, at least the Fredericksburg Willomes can relate to any struggles they might have? That we are not to be revered because of our perfection, but approached for the love and acceptance we can offer?

Father, help me to be an instrument of your peace and encouragement. Help me to be appropriately vulnerable with others. Help me to be the husband and father I need to be. And help me to be the best worshipper of you that I can.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
 

Psalm 119:130

The teaching of your word gives light, so even the simple can understand.

Psalm 119:130

Dear God, there are so many lessons for ya to learn from reading scripture. And the nice thing about the Bible is that the writers told us the ugly parts too. We like to think of David as this perfect king, but staying with2 Samuel 11, his mistakes, weaknesses and sin are there for all of us to see.

I met a young woman last week. She is at a real crossroads in her life as she tries to start her career. As I spoke with her, I tried to encourage her with a Bible story. I knew she grew up with Christian parents so I asked her if she knew who David was. She said, “Goliath?” I said, “Yes, but do you know anything more about him.” She didn’t. I encouraged her to take some time to just read 1 & 2 Samuel, and then I told her something about David’s life that might help her.

With my own children, I don’t know where each of them are in their hearts when it comes to their level of their desire to love and submit to you, but part of my prayer for them is that the seeds that we, family members, church friends, and Sunday school teachers planted in them as they grew will find good soil, establish roots, and bear great fruit in their lives.

Father, my heart still has a lot to learn. Help me to take your scripture and learn from it. That’s one of the things I’m trying to do with these prayer journals—learn from your word. Make it one of the things you use to sharpen and guide me.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on October 10, 2018 in Psalms

 

Romans 8:34-39 – “Nothing is Beyond You” by Rich Mullins

Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:34-39

Dear God, “neither death nor life…” Nothing can separate us from your love.

On his last album before he died, Rich Mullins had a song called “Nothing is Beyond You.”

“Nothing is Beyond You” by Rich Mullins

Where would I go? Where would I run?

Even if I found the strength to fly

And if I rose on the wings of a dove

And crashed through the corners of the sky

And if I sailed past the edge of the sea

Even if I made my bed in hell

Still there you would find me

Cuz Nothing is beyond you

You stand beyond the reach

Of my vain imaginations, my misguided pieties

The heavens stretch to hold you

And deep calls out to deep

Saying that nothing is beyond you

And time cannot contain you, you fill eternity

Sin could never drain you, death has lost its sting

And I cannot explain how you came to love me

Except to say that nothing is beyond you

Nothing is beyond you

And if I should shrink back from the light

For I can sink into the dark

If I take cover and I close my eyes

Even then you could see my heart

You cut through all my pain and rage

The darkness is not dark to you

The night’s as bright as day

Cuz Nothing is beyond you

You stand beyond the reach

Of my vain imaginations, my misguided pieties

The heavens stretch to hold you

And deep calls out to deep

Saying that nothing is beyond you

And time cannot contain you, you fill eternity

Sin could never drain you, death has lost its sting

And I cannot explain how you came to love me

Except to say that nothing is beyond you

Nothing is beyond you

This was instantly my favorite song on this record after he died. Beyond what I think is some pretty great poetry is a truth from this Romans passage—your plan is stupid-proof. It’s John-proof. There is so much freedom in that.

Father, thank you. I’ll do my best to see that you never have to go far to find me. I want to be at your feet. I want to be where it’s best for me—worshipping you. Please keep me from missing you at any given moment, for while I know I am not beyond you, I know it’s possible for me to let you down.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on October 10, 2018 in Uncategorized

 

Peter & John — Mark 10:35-45

Then James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came over and spoke to him. “Teacher,” they said, “we want you to do us a favor.” “What is your request?” he asked. They replied, “When you sit on your glorious throne, we want to sit in places of honor next to you, one on your right and the other on your left.” But Jesus said to them, “You don’t know what you are asking! Are you able to drink from the bitter cup of suffering I am about to drink? Are you able to be baptized with the baptism of suffering I must be baptized with?” “Oh yes,” they replied, “we are able!” Then Jesus told them, “You will indeed drink from my bitter cup and be baptized with my baptism of suffering. But I have no right to say who will sit on my right or my left. God has prepared those places for the ones he has chosen.” When the ten other disciples heard what James and John had asked, they were indignant. So Jesus called them together and said, “You know that the rulers in this world lord it over their people, and officials flaunt their authority over those under them. But among you it will be different. Whoever wants to be a leader among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first among you must be the slave of everyone else. For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve others and to give his life as a ransom for many.”
Mark 10:35-45

Dear God, my first thought when I read this story is, “Oh, John and James, don’t do it!” I mean, what did they think they were asking for? Were they hoping to get to sit back and judge people all day long? Did they simply want to be in a position of authority over everyone else? Was that what was in their hearts?

So as I sit here in judgment of them, I have to ask myself if I do this? In my position at my work or even in my own home, do I lord it over others? I hope I am both a leader and a servant. At home, I’m obviously a co-leader with my wife, and I don’t think she feels like she cannot exert her will at any given time. At work, I’ve learned over the years that it is important to have that person who is responsible and sets the tone and direction, but at the same time it’s important to serve those who are working for and with you and ensure that they are getting everything they need to feel successful at their jobs.

Of course, I fail at all of this at times. I have failed with my wife and children. I’ve failed with coworkers and subordinates. I’m really sorry for that. I know better. I have the bad examples of John and James to follow here.

Father, help me to be a servant to those around me. I know I have to be careful to not abdicate the leadership they need from me, but show me how to do it in love. Help me to build them up. Help me to hear your voice and lead with your wisdom. And let all of this be for your glory and so that your kingdom will come, even in the small way my life can influence it, on earth as it is in heaven.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Peter & John — Mark 10:32-34

They were now on the way up to Jerusalem, and Jesus was walking ahead of them. The disciples were filled with awe, and the people following behind were overwhelmed with fear. Taking the twelve disciples aside, Jesus once more began to describe everything that was about to happen to him. “Listen,” he said, “we’re going up to Jerusalem, where the Son of Man will be betrayed to the leading priests and the teachers of religious law. They will sentence him to die and hand him over to the Romans. They will mock him, spit on him, flog him with a whip, and kill him, but after three days he will rise again.
Mark 10:32-34

Dear God, I wish I understood the picture of what it looked like for Jesus to move around. There is this idea that there were a lot of hangers on, and then there were the 12 core. And then there were the three (Peter, James and John) who seemed to go even closer than the 12.

What’s interesting about this story is as much what Jesus is saying, but how each group is reacting. The hangers on were afraid and the 12 were in awe. As is evidenced by what John and James are about to ask Jesus in the next passage, it didn’t matter how many times Jesus told them what was about to happen in Jerusalem, they didn’t quite get it. Frankly, they should probably have been more afraid like the general followers as opposed to being in awe.

I’m in the middle of a two-week vacation right now, and I have to confess that the last few months seem to have brought me relentlessly good news. In a lot of areas of my life, things have been going well. Now, the thought keeps crossing my mind that I wonder if this vacation is preparing me for something hard that is coming around the corner. I guess I can liken it to the fear that the followers were feeling. What is next?

But you don’t call me to live in fear. You don’t call me to seek or even hope for comfort. You call me to engage with you in this moment. Then I am supposed to keep doing that until at some point I look back and can see what you did and how you did it.

Father, I’ve said to people before that, when it comes to the future, you keep me on a need-to-know basis, and I very rarely need to know. C.S. Lewis, through the voice of the demon Screwtape, said that the present is the one point in time that interfaces with you. Help me to stay in this moment and get everything from you that you have for me in this moment. Keep my head out of yesterday’s successes and tomorrow’s fears. Help me to stay in this moment, walking with Jesus down the road. If Jerusalem in in the future, it will come soon enough. I don’t want to miss what you have for me here and now.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on October 9, 2018 in Mark, Peter and John

 

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