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I post a blog of daily devotions that are my prayer journals based on scripture.

Matthew 7:13-14

13 “You can enter God’s Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. 14 But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it.

Matthew 7:13-14

Dear God, I wanted to see what the commentary I normally use (The Communicator’s Commentary) had to say about this passage. For Matthew, the author, Myron Augsburger, made this statement that I liked: “Conversion to Christ is a change of direction from our way to His way, but following conversion or change of direction we still need to decide at which level we will live our lives [emphasis mine]. We will live either at a level of magnanimity or at a level of mediocrity.”

How many of us settle for mediocrity? How often do I settle for mediocrity? Over the years, how many times have I settled? I suppose the good news is that, for some reason, I always get pulled back to the narrow path. Maybe it’s conscience. Maybe it’s guilt. Maybe it’s hunger for you. Even now, as I sit here at 4:21 in the afternoon writing this prayer to you, I have chosen a pretty mediocre path for the most of this day. I’m quarantining since my wife has COVID, caring for her and being available to her, but I haven’t taken any person time with you until now. Any dedicated contemplative time until now. I’ve watched some Olympics. I’ve read some in the book I’m reading. I took the dog for a long walk. But other than that I haven’t done much.

Not that every day has to be everything. And I suppose I cannot always be operating at 100% effectiveness. There is a call for Sabbath, after all. But I could have been here earlier with you today. I could have worshipped you more.

Father, maybe I’m sad about some situations in my life. I know of some people who are experiencing strife with others. That breaks my heart. Please let there be peace there and let the pain they are experiencing count. Whether it’s marriages, friendships, or family relationships, please bring peace and growth through the pain. For those who are sick, including my wife, please bring healing. I’m also thinking of a couple of friends who are experiencing illness. One who is at the end of his long life as well. Bring the healing you have for all of them. Oh, Lord, bring your healing in me as well. Heal my soul. Forgive me of my sin. Heal my heart and the scars that have formed. Comfort me. Guide me. And help me to stay on this narrow path.

I offer this to you in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
 

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Matthew 7:12

12 “Do to others whatever you would like them to do to you. This is the essence of all that is taught in the law and the prophets.

Matthew 7:12

Dear God, this is a little like verse 6. It just feels a little thrown in there and incongruous with what comes before it or goes after it. It’s good. It’s important. It’s one of the core commandments we are supposed to follow. But it is preceded by you being a good father to us and then followed by the narrow gate. Maybe it fits more as the lead-in to the narrow gate story than it does as a closing to the part about you being a good father, even though the NIV actually puts verse 12 in the same paragraph as the father stuff (which is weird because the New American Standard 1995 and the New Living Translation give that verse its own paragraph.

So, do to others what I would have them do to me. That sums up the law? Let me just recap the Sermon up to this point and see how this command fits into each one:

  • Beatitudes: Yes, those are about showing mercy and being a peacemaker. That fits.
  • Salt and light: Yes, that fits.
  • “You have heard it said, but I say…”: Yes, all of those, from divorce to adultery to hate fit.
  • Turn the other cheek: That fits.
  • Love your enemies and pray for them: Check.
  • Give to others. Yep.
  • Be earnest in your love for God and don’t seek public acclaim: Okay. Kind of, but it doesn’t contradict it. In fact, I suppose if I follow this it, at the very least, makes me an easier person for my neighbors to be around.
  • Forgiveness critical part of the Lord’s Prayer: Yeah, that’s important for this all-encompassing commandment.
  • Money is a dangerous potential idol: That’s important when it comes to making money a priority over other things. This can fit.
  • Worry is a lack of faith: Kind of a fit, but maybe more of a way for me to evaluate how I am doing with you than how I am doing loving others.
  • Do not judge others: Obviously, this fits perfectly.
  • Bring requests to my good father: Well, not a perfect fit for this concept, but certainly part of worshipping you and developing my relationship with you.
  • The Narrow Gate: Yes, the narrow gate obviously calls me to follow this command.
  • The fruit of others: This helps me to know how to love them.
  • Wise and foolish builder: If I follow these things I will find myself at peace in the middle of the storm.

Father, I guess when we get so worked up about how hard it is to follow the Sermon on the Mount, we can just zero in on Jesus’s top-two commands: Love you with everything we have and love our neighbors. If in doubt, lean into that. Help me to do that today. Help me to do that tomorrow. Help me to do that in this moment.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
 

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Matthew 7:7-11

“Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.

“You parents—if your children ask for a loaf of bread, do you give them a stone instead? Or if they ask for a fish, do you give them a snake? Of course not! So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him.
Matthew 7:7-11

Dear God, I was listening to a podcast this morning where the two men were discussing some of the things in the political news lately including the admonishment some people have felt about feeling judged for not having children or enough children. One of the arguments one of the men made for having children didn’t fit into the two main things we are being fed politically. His reasoning on the importance of having children is how it impacts us as parents. We understand love and sacrificial love in a new way when we are responsible for caring for a defenseless child. We also get a glimpse of how you feel about us in a new way.

I remember when my children were young and I first started to get that insight into how you must see me after realizing how much I loved my children. And, as Jesus says here, if I being sinful know how to love my children, how much more do you love me and want to give me the things that are good for me. Of course, you also want to withhold things that are bad for me. So this passage from Jesus isn’t a blank check you’ve given us to fill in. Jesus knows that if our child asked for a stone to eat we would deny their request and give them bread instead. And there are times when I am too ignorant to know what you are doing in a given situation so I will ask without demanding. I guess the other side of it is that sometimes I can ask too little because I do not want to be greedy or selfish.

Father, I want to show my children as much love as possible while not hurting them with the love I have for them by giving them the wrong things. I know you want to do the same for me. So help me to be exactly what you need me to be for them. And teach me how to be the man you need me to be through them. Mold me through them. Shape me. Convict me. Thank you for loving me.

I offer this to you in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
 

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Matthew 7:6

“Don’t waste what is holy on people who are unholy. Don’t throw your pearls to pigs! They will trample the pearls, then turn and attack you.

Matthew 7:6

Dear God, this verse almost feels like it is on an island in the middle of this sermon. It’s right after not judging people–this feels like judging–and right before ask, seek, and knock. I supposed I should point out that this is the New Living Translation. The NIV starts with, “Do not give dogs what is sacred.” The note in my NIV Study Bible for verse 6 says, “Teaching should be given in accordance with the spiritual capacity of the learners. dogs. The unclean dogs of the street were held in low esteem.”

Well, I don’t know exactly what to do with this verse. I suppose it might be easier if I were to think of living as your disciple in the midst of people who are hateful towards you. How would I respond to them? How did you respond to them? Would it be foolishness to try to share my faith with them because it would only inflame their anger and turn them more against you? Is it better that I just love them and then have them ask me about you through the relationship we build?

Frankly, I’ve always struggled with this one sentence. It just seems so incongruous with the rest of your teachings. It seems out of step even with the first five verses of this chapter. The Communicator’s CommentaryMatthew by Myron Augsburger even seems to struggle with this verse a little: “The word-pictures in verse 6 are not easy to interpret. They evidently mean that we should not handle the pearls of the Gospel carelessly or present truths of grace to persons who will only seek to destroy them…the early church used this verse to mean discrimination in the fellowship with respect to pseudobelievers and followers of the various religions of the Roman Empire…Basically the passage is a call for discernment in relating to others.”

Father, give me a lot of discernment today. I have some leading to do at my work through some tricky waters. Help me to be exactly what you need me to be for people whom you love and who love you. Be glorified in my life.

I pray all of this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
 

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Matthew 7:1-5

“Do not judge others, and you will not be judged. For you will be treated as you treat others. The standard you use in judging is the standard by which you will be judged.

“And why worry about a speck in your friend’s eye when you have a log in your own? How can you think of saying to your friend, ‘Let me help you get rid of that speck in your eye,’ when you can’t see past the log in your own eye? Hypocrite! First get rid of the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend’s eye.

Matthew 7:1-5

Dear God, one thing I’ll say for the struggles and sorrows in my life. If they’ve done nothing else, they have humbled me. Oh, how they have humbled me. Especially my failures in parenting. I know I tried, but I also know that in so many ways I experienced failure. So when I see other parents maybe doing something with which I disagree, I still have nothing but love for them. I can’t judge them.

But I still find plenty of ways to judge people. Lately, it feels like I am judging the judgers. I probably need to think about that a little.

When I think about judging I think about “the dart scene” in Ted Lasso when the main character, Ted, schools a bully on judging people before you know them.

It’s one of those scenes where it’s easy to sit there as Ted tells the bully to “be curious, not judgmental” and say, “Yeah, Rupert! Be curious, not judgmental.” But then aren’t we judging Rupert? Should we be more curious about him and why he is acting the way he acts? When I see the person who is displaying hateful attitudes or doing something that offends me, shouldn’t I be more curious and leave the judging of them to you?

Father, let these words ring in my ears today: “Be curious.” Help me to be curious and to not take anything–ANYTHING–at face value. Give me your eyes. Give me your ears. Give me your compassion. And give me your words.

I offer this to you in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
 

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Matthew 6:25-34

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Matthew 6:25-34

Dear God, these words are meant more and were more challenging to a Jewish person listening to Jesus in 30 A.D. than they mean to an American in 2024. Or at least to me. I can hear about worrying about food or clothing or some of the necessities of life, but the truth is that I don’t really need to worry about those things per se. But the people listening to this sermon that day had legitimate worries about how they would eat and what they would find to wear. Jesus was speaking to their reality.

So if Jesus were here talking to me today, what would he choose to focus on in my life. “Don’t be anxious about your children.” “Don’t be anxious about your work.” “Don’t be anxious about staffing challenges.” “Don’t be anxious about how you will help your clients.” These are some of the burdens that are on my heart this morning as I sit here. When I think about the worry that is in my heart, this is what I’m thinking of.

Father, as my wife and I were praying together this morning I was praying that you will use these different opportunities to help me be your blessing to those for whom I am concerned. As much as I love and care for each person I just mentioned, I know you love them more. You want them to be in complete relationship with you, happy, and peaceful. Help me to be a source of that for them. Love them. Show me how to love them. Show me what to do in each situation. And please lay out the path for me. Make it obvious, clear, and direct. Holy Spirit, be with me today. And help me to remember to completely lean on you.

I offer this prayer to you in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
 

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Matthew 6:19-24

19 “Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, 20 but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

22 “The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is healthy, your whole body will be full of light, 23 but if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!

24 “No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money.

Matthew 6:19-24

Dear God, it occurs to me that, outside of Matthew who somehow was able to record the contents of this speech (I’ve heard that the series The Chosen shows that Jesus worked out this sermon as kind of a stump speech with Matthew and that’s how he was able to record it for us–not a bad theory), but those listening to it only heard it and only heard it once. There’s a lot to remember here for one sitting.

For these few verses, we get some stuff on money and stuff. Earthly possessions. I think the key line of this section is that one about where my heart will be with my treasure. If I want to see the state of my heart, I only need to look at the things I treasure most. Do I treasure politics and political power for my tribe? That tells me something about my heart. Do I treasure my adult children and put unreasonable expectations on them to love me? That tells me something about my heart. Do I put expectations on you and what you are supposed to do for me? Am I here worshipping you because I expect you to perform for me? That tells me something about my heart.

On the other hand, do I simply show up to worship you and submit myself to the molding that you are doing in my soul? Do I try to serve my adult children and look out for their interests regardless of what it costs me? Do I ignore power, and instead try to serve others regardless of the political wranglings around me? All of those things say something about my heart as well.

Father, I know I’m somewhere in the middle. I suppose we all are at some point. But I pray that you will take the clay of my life and continue to mold me and work on me today. Love others through me. Give them a sense of your love for them through me. For those I love who are in pain. Please, heal them. For the mistakes I’ve made in their lives, please show me how to repent. For the work you have me to do today, in my family, vocationally, in my community, or even in worshipping and serving you, guide me. Oh, Father. Oh, Jesus. Oh, Holy Spirit. Please, my Triune God, be with me today and use my life however you will and regardless of what it costs me.

I pray all of this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
 

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John 9 – Certainty

As he passed by, he saw a man blind from birth. And his disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” Jesus answered, “It was not that this man sinned, or his parents, but that the works of God might be displayed in him. We must work the works of him who sent me while it is day; night is coming, when no one can work. As long as I am in the world, I am the light of the world.” Having said these things, he spit on the ground and made mud with the saliva. Then he anointed the man’s eyes with the mud and said to him, “Go, wash in the pool of Siloam” (which means Sent). So he went and washed and came back seeing.

The neighbors and those who had seen him before as a beggar were saying, “Is this not the man who used to sit and beg?” Some said, “It is he.” Others said, “No, but he is like him.” He kept saying, “I am the man.” 10 So they said to him, “Then how were your eyes opened?” 11 He answered, “The man called Jesus made mud and anointed my eyes and said to me, ‘Go to Siloam and wash.’ So I went and washed and received my sight.” 12 They said to him, “Where is he?” He said, “I do not know.”

13 They brought to the Pharisees the man who had formerly been blind. 14 Now it was a Sabbath day when Jesus made the mud and opened his eyes. 15 So the Pharisees again asked him how he had received his sight. And he said to them, “He put mud on my eyes, and I washed, and I see.” 16 Some of the Pharisees said, “This man is not from God, for he does not keep the Sabbath.” But others said, “How can a man who is a sinner do such signs?” And there was a division among them. 17 So they said again to the blind man, “What do you say about him, since he has opened your eyes?” He said, “He is a prophet.”

18 The Jews did not believe that he had been blind and had received his sight, until they called the parents of the man who had received his sight 19 and asked them, “Is this your son, who you say was born blind? How then does he now see?” 20 His parents answered, “We know that this is our son and that he was born blind. 21 But how he now sees we do not know, nor do we know who opened his eyes. Ask him; he is of age. He will speak for himself.” 22 (His parents said these things because they feared the Jews, for the Jews had already agreed that if anyone should confess Jesus to be Christ, he was to be put out of the synagogue.) 23 Therefore his parents said, “He is of age; ask him.”

24 So for the second time they called the man who had been blind and said to him, “Give glory to God. We know that this man is a sinner.” 25 He answered, “Whether he is a sinner I do not know. One thing I do know, that though I was blind, now I see.” 26 They said to him, “What did he do to you? How did he open your eyes?” 27 He answered them, “I have told you already, and you would not listen. Why do you want to hear it again? Do you also want to become his disciples?” 28 And they reviled him, saying, “You are his disciple, but we are disciples of Moses. 29 We know that God has spoken to Moses, but as for this man, we do not know where he comes from.” 30 The man answered, “Why, this is an amazing thing! You do not know where he comes from, and yet he opened my eyes. 31 We know that God does not listen to sinners, but if anyone is a worshiper of God and does his will, God listens to him. 32 Never since the world began has it been heard that anyone opened the eyes of a man born blind. 33 If this man were not from God, he could do nothing.” 34 They answered him, “You were born in utter sin, and would you teach us?” And they cast him out.

35 Jesus heard that they had cast him out, and having found him he said, “Do you believe in the Son of Man?” 36 He answered, “And who is he, sir, that I may believe in him?” 37 Jesus said to him, “You have seen him, and it is he who is speaking to you.” 38 He said, “Lord, I believe,” and he worshiped him. 39 Jesus said, “For judgment I came into this world, that those who do not see may see, and those who see may become blind.” 40 Some of the Pharisees near him heard these things, and said to him, “Are we also blind?” 41 Jesus said to them, “If you were blind, you would have no guilt; but now that you say, ‘We see,’ your guilt remains.

John 9

Dear God, I was just listening to a podcast from the Holy Post. Skye Jethani was talking about the story from John 9 (and half of 10) about Jesus healing the blind man and the Pharisees refusing to allow themselves to believe Jesus was from you. Jesus was you. They just couldn’t believe it. It would deconstruct (It’s funny I used that word. I didn’t mean to, but that word and concept has become a battleground in the American Evangelical church) their world and faith to think that Jesus might not only be the Messiah, but also that if he was and he was violating their laws then everything the believed would have to be reconsidered.

Skye Jethani called this certainty. They couldn’t or wouldn’t allow themselves to get past their certainty. He used examples of Christians from the past who were certain that lightning was demons and the fact that churches–often the tallest structures in towns–were struck more often than other buildings was an attack by Satan. They rejected Benjamin Franklin’s lightning rod as an affront to their faith when he first invented it divided the church. Some installed them and the churches were safe. Some rejected the lightning rods and a portion of those churches continued to be struck. They were certain.

Skye’s real thesis was that the modern American Evangelical church has picked some things that it is certain about–politics, LGBTQ+, guns, COVID conspiracies, etc.–and is acting like the Pharisees when something challenged their assumptions. We aren’t willing to discuss and explore, perhaps even arriving back at the same conclusion we currently have. Instead we just say no to something that flies in the face of what we were taught to believe. The real danger is that, as our children grow and question, when they see us being unreasonable in our beliefs, we could lose an entire generation and they will just walk away from faith. I was talking with a friend at lunch this week about his concern about the LGBTQ+ agenda is going to be damaging to his kids. My encouragement to him was to figure out his persuasive arguments on the issues and be prepare to discuss them with his children beyond “it’s wrong,” because the world is very good right now with its persuasive argument in favor of it. He will have to make it a dialogue with his children, not a closed-minded mandate against.

Isn’t it funny that there really isn’t one person in the New Testament pre-resurrection who was right about Jesus and what his purpose on earth was. Not one. Mary and Joseph didn’t understand it. Elizabeth, Zechariah and their son John didn’t understand it. I’m not really sure when Jesus fully understood it. But after the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus had to go hide because he knew the people were going to try to make him king. They were trying to make him king all of the way up to Passion week. He was the only one who comprehended what was going on. But everyone else was sure they were right about him, whether they were against him or for him. But every single one of them was wrong. And the commands of the Sermon on the Mount flew in the face of what everyone expected of him and what he would call them to do.

Father, I know I am blind. I know I have some preconceived theologies that are errant but are so baked into me that I cannot see them. I know I don’t know what you would have me do at any given moment. I guess the best thing I can say for myself is that I know that I don’t know. Please teach me, Holy Spirit. Please guide me. Help me to lead with humility. As I get ready to teach this Sunday school class this morning, make this a journey that we are all on together to simply hear from you. You are our God. We want you to teach us. Break us. Melt us. Mold Us. Fill us.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Matthew 6:5-18

“When you pray, you are not to be like the hypocrites; for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and on the street corners so that they may be seen by men. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. But you, when you pray, go into your inner room, close your door and pray to your Father who is in secret, and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.

“And when you are praying, do not use meaningless repetition as the Gentiles do, for they suppose that they will be heard for their many words. So do not be like them; for your Father knows what you need before you ask Him.

“Pray, then, in this way:

‘Our Father who is in heaven,
Hallowed be Your name.
10 ‘Your kingdom come.
Your will be done,
On earth as it is in heaven.
11 ‘Give us this day our daily bread.
12 ‘And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.
13 ‘And do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from evil. [For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.’]

14 For if you forgive others for their transgressions, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions.

16 “Whenever you fast, do not put on a gloomy face as the hypocrites do, for they neglect their appearance so that they will be noticed by men when they are fasting. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. 17 But you, when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face 18 so that your fasting will not be noticed by men, but by your Father who is in secret; and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.

Dear God, if there is one thing I feel like I have failed at it is trying to inspire others to do prayer journals like this. It’s the reason I first started sharing these prayers publicly. It’s not so that others would be impressed with me. In fact, nearly everyone who sees these prayers has no idea who I am. I am anonymous to them. But I would love for people to see these prayers and be inspired to do something similar themselves. Yes, sometimes I have a surprise insight that I would love to share with people. I’ll be teaching a Sunday school class tomorrow about the Sermon on the Mount, and I will get some of the content from these prayer journals. But mostly I want others to see how your Word can be applied to our lives today. I want them to become intimate with the stories through their own exploration of what you left us as Scripture.

As far as the Lord’s Prayer, I normally use the New Living Translation, but I didn’t like one thing it did for this passage so I shifted to New American Standard (1995). For your kingdom coming, the NLT added “soon” to the passage. I couldn’t find any other translations that used “soon” there. For some reason, using that word gave me shades of “Jesus coming back again” even though that’s not necessarily what it was saying. When I pray, “Your kingdom come,” I am praying in this moment. Right now. Through me. Through other Christians. Through your body. Not “soon” but now. In my next action, let your kingdom come to earth. In the next actions of your Body around the world, let your kingdom come. Even through the ignorant actions of unbelievers, let your kingdom come.

It’s interesting that Jesus felt the need to teach us how to pray. I heard someone say once that it’s the only thing the disciples ever actively asked Jesus to teach them. How do we pray?

Father, these verses for today seem to be all about motives. What are my motives for being here today? I was thinking about this question this morning: “If I think that Jesus’s life, death, and resurrection is about being reconciled to God, then what does being reconciled to God in my daily life look like and am I living like I really want that?” Some seek Jesus’s reconciliation power so that we can one day avoid hell. But that’s not what it’s about. It’s about what Jesus is talking about here: my private, earnest, honest relationship with you. That’s what I’m seeking even in this moment. I am here to worship you, to bow down, and to say that you are my God. I am sorry for all of the other gods I put before you.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

P.S. I just looked at the beginning of verse 5 again and had another thought. These public displays of faith only work to my benefit if I live in a place like rural Texas where Christian faith and activity gets rewarded by society. But in a place like Portland it wouldn’t be. Quite the opposite. So maybe a good question to ask myself is would I do what I’m doing in Portland as much as I do it in rural Texas?

 
 

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Matthew 6:1-4

“Watch out! Don’t do your good deeds publicly, to be admired by others, for you will lose the reward from your Father in heaven. When you give to someone in need, don’t do as the hypocrites do—blowing trumpets in the synagogues and streets to call attention to their acts of charity! I tell you the truth, they have received all the reward they will ever get. But when you give to someone in need, don’t let your left hand know what your right hand is doing. Give your gifts in private, and your Father, who sees everything, will reward you.

Matthew 6:1-4

Dear God, it can be hard to keep our good deeds totally private. And there are other times when it is actually appropriate to let others know we’ve done something because it will serve as an endorsement for them to support it as well. As a nonprofit, there are times when I need to be able to list a donor’s name on something so that others will know that this person of credibility endorses us so they can feel confident endorsing us as well.

But that’s not Jesus’s point here. Jesus, as always, is looking deep into our hearts. Why are we doing what we do? Are we doing it to manipulate other people to like us (ironically, such public displays usually turn people off more than attract them to us), or worse still, because we think we can manipulate you into liking us more? It’s probably surprising to know how many of us think we can influence your love for us. In modern American Christianity, there are so many people who are worried about getting their “fire insurance” that they make that their goal instead of relationship with you. Reconciliation with you isn’t primarily about my eternity. It’s about my here and now. It’s about this moment I have with you. This day I have with you. It’s not about tomorrow. It’s not even primarily about the past. No, it’s primarily about this moment and my communion with you in real time.

So why am I doing what I do? I like to think it’s that fruit of your Spirit that grows in me through being with you and worshipping you. Why do I take someone’s cart for them when they are done unloading it into their car and I’m walking into the grocery store? Because I’m filled with love for them and I want to help. Why do I close the lid on someone’s garbage can as it sat in the street with a lid that had blown open after a storm? Because I want to serve them. You grow in me. And if that’s you growing in me that is driving me to do these things then that must mean that that is your nature too! You love us. You want to show us love. We will get later to the part about fathers and good gifts, but it’s that kind of thing. My evidence that you are good is that the closer I get to you the “gooder” I get.

Father, I am grateful for you. I am grateful to sit here this morning and be able to think through this sermon from Jesus with you. I’m grateful to have different layers of your nature revealed to me the more I do this. I’m grateful for Jesus’s life, teaching, death, and resurrection. I’m grateful for his love for me. I am grateful for the Holy Spirit’s presence with me right now as I type these words. As I go to work. As I love donors. As I love my wife. Oh, how I love you, Father, Jesus, and Holy Spirit.

I pray all of this under the reconciliation Jesus offers and with the Holy Spirit in my presence,

Amen

 
 

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