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Peter & John — John 19:25-27

25 Nov

John 19:25-27
25 Standing near the cross were Jesus’ mother, and his mother’s sister, Mary (the wife of Clopas), and Mary Magdalene. 26 When Jesus saw his mother standing there beside the disciple he loved, he said to her, “Dear woman, here is your son.” 27 And he said to this disciple, “Here is your mother.” And from then on this disciple took her into his home.

 

Dear God, for the purposes of what I’m doing here, I am going to assume that John is referring to himself in verse 26 when he mentions “the disciple he loved.” I wonder what it was about John that made Jesus decide to do this. Was it his dependability? Was it that he knew John would be the last of the disciples to die so he’d be around longer? Or was it simply that he was the one who was there? Of course, we don’t know that none of the other disciples weren’t there. We’ve assumed, but we don’t know that.

I’m guessing it was a combination of trusting John and his availability at the time. But I wonder why Jesus didn’t assume that his siblings would take care of her. I know that it is vague about whether or not Jesus’ siblings were from a previous marriage for Joseph and Mary had no other children besides Jesus. I’ve never subscribed to that belief, but this story would seem to support that theory. On the other hand, perhaps Mary had been following Jesus and his siblings just didn’t understand or know how to relate to everything they were seeing. They didn’t know what to make of Mary, Jesus, or the disciples. James (Jesus’ brother, not John’s) finally figured it out, but I don’t think we know about any others. John was probably his best option and as he hung there dying, he needed John’s help for his mother.

I suppose there is something to be said for just showing up. John was there. We don’t know how close he was able to stay all day, but he seems to have some good information about things that were said and done throughout the day so I think he was certainly lurking in the shadows, if nothing else. But there he is, the temperamental disciple, now pensively and fearfully following Jesus to the cross. There is no asking if he should call down fire on the church leaders. He’s not rebuking people. He’s just there, being traumatized and watching his world change before him in ways that he cannot begin to understand. Again, though, to his credit, he’s right there and in a position to hear Jesus for what John thinks will be for the last time.

Father, I don’t know what I have to offer, but I at least offer you my presence. I give you my submission to your will—as best as I know how. I give you my ego—as much as I am capable. I give you my dreams that focus on my own comfort, reward, and enjoyment. And I give you my willingness to embrace the task that you have given me to do. The task of testifying to the Gospel of your grace.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on November 25, 2018 in John, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — John 18:17-18,25-27

24 Nov

John 18:17-18,25-27 NASB
[17] Then the slave-girl who kept the door said to Peter, “You are not also one of this man’s disciples, are you?” He said, “I am not.” [18] Now the slaves and the officers were standing there, having made a charcoal fire, for it was cold and they were warming themselves; and Peter was also with them, standing and warming himself. [25] Now Simon Peter was standing and warming himself. So they said to him, “You are not also one of His disciples, are you?” He denied it, and said, “I am not.” [26] One of the slaves of the high priest, being a relative of the one whose ear Peter cut off, said, “Did I not see you in the garden with Him?” [27] Peter then denied it again, and immediately a rooster crowed.

Dear God, John chooses to tell this story much more mercifully and matter-of-factly than the others. He leaves out Peter’s shame, although later, along the water after the resurrection, he will capture the restoration.

The thing I notice about John throughout this book is that he seems to empathize with people. He has mercy for them. I concluded several year ago that he has mercy and sympathy for Pilate. In this case, he was as scared as Peter was and would probably have denied Jesus too if anyone had bothered to ask him. He feels for Peter.

How is my mercy level for other people? I hope it’s at least getting better. The hardest part is when they have offended me. How do I look beyond my own feelings and ego and try to see where that person might be coming from and then extend grace to them while also seeing if I can help them?

As I sit here, I can think of countless times I have not done this well—especially with family. It’s frustrating. And the times I have done it right, my eyes have seen no benefit from it. It seems like the other person often takes advantage of my mercy and tries to use it as an opportunity to abuse me more.

Father, thank you for John’s example of mercy and discretion. Thank you that he was able to look at the failings of others and at least appreciate where they were coming from. Give me that ability today. I have certain situations in my heart. Please give me peace and wisdom to deal with them beyond my natural capabilities.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on November 24, 2018 in John, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — John 18:7-11

22 Nov

John 18:7-11
7 Once more he asked them, “Who are you looking for?”
And again they replied, “Jesus the Nazarene.”
8 “I told you that I AM he,” Jesus said. “And since I am the one you want, let these others go.” 9 He did this to fulfill his own statement: “I did not lose a single one of those you have given me.”
10 Then Simon Peter drew a sword and slashed off the right ear of Malchus, the high priest’s slave. 11 But Jesus said to Peter, “Put your sword back into its sheath. Shall I not drink from the cup of suffering the Father has given me?”

Dear God, it’s interesting to see what John decides to tell us and what he leaves out. He tells us about Peter cutting off the ear, but he doesn’t tell us that Jesus healed the ear or why Peter had a sword in the first place (Luke 22:36-37). He also leaves out something else important. He doesn’t tell the part about Jesus praying on the Mount of Olives and the disciples praying with Him falling asleep. Hmmm. I wonder if he carried that shame the rest of his life.

But back to Peter. I already mentioned this in a previous journal, but I think it is significant to note that Peter was, indeed, ready to defend Jesus, follow Jesus, battle for Jesus, and die for Jesus. That’s just not how Jesus needed this to work out. This is evidenced by what John tells us in verse 8 with Jesus saying, “”And since I am the one you want, let these others go.” I don’t remember Matthew, Mark, or Luke giving us that detail. At some point, I am going to do a side-by-side comparison of every story the four Gospels give us so that I can get a better look at exactly what John wanted us to know that was unique to the other three.

I was watching a documentary on Bill Murray the other day, and a guy talked about a Taoist Proverb that has a principle I’ve clung to the last few years as things have and haven’t gone the way I wanted them to. To paraphrase quickly, it seems there was a man who had a prized horse:

  • One day the horse ran away and his neighbor came over and told him it was such a shame that this bad thing had happened. The man replied, “Who is to know what is good or what is bad?”
  • The next day the horse came back, but he brought with him 10 prized wild horses. The neighbor came and rejoiced with him remarking that it was such a great thing. The man replied, “Who is to know what is good or what is bad?”
  • The next day the man’s son was trying to train one of the horses and broke his leg. The neighbor expressed sympathy for such a terrible thing happening, but the man replied, “Who is to know what is good or what is bad?”
  • The next day the army came to conscript able-bodied men to go to war. The son was left behind because of his broken leg, and the neighbor rejoiced with the man, but the man replied, “Who is to know what is good or what is bad?”

And so the story goes on and on. Peter felt like a failure that night. John felt like a failure too. And they did, indeed, fail. Judas Iscariot failed that week as well. But in all of it, your plan prevailed. You didn’t need them to fail, but you allowed for their failure. They didn’t understand that Jesus’ death was good and fighting to save Jesus by cutting off an ear was bad. But looking back and telling the story years later, John was able to see a little more clearly and understand what you were up to.

Father, I am truly sorry for my failings. I really am. But on this Thanksgiving Day, I want to thank you for working around all of my faults and flaws to not only love me, but to do you will on earth through me. Maybe things could be done better if I was better, but I am able to sleep peacefully at night knowing that you are my God, you love me, and you forgive me. Thank you.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on November 22, 2018 in John, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — John 14:5,8,22

21 Nov

John 14:5 NASB
[5] Thomas said to Him, “Lord, we do not know where You are going, how do we know the way?”
John 14:8 NASB
[8] Philip said to Him, “Lord, show us the Father, and it is enough for us.”
John 14:22 NASB
[22] Judas (not Iscariot) said to Him, “Lord, what then has happened that You are going to disclose Yourself to us and not to the world?”

Dear God, I want to look at John as writer and storyteller this morning. He gives us a unique window into the Last Supper. Thomas, Philip, and the good Judas get call outs here. I don’t know that it’s as important what they asked (they were basically all just trying to make sense of what was happening around them) as it is that John was going through the evening in his memory and these are some of the specifics he remembered. “Thomas asked Him where He was going.” “Philip wanted to see a revelation of God (that one was pretty silly of him to say—Jesus didn’t seem to like that one).” “Judas (gotta be clear which one) wanted to understand why things were so shrouded and confusing.” These might have all been things John himself wanted to ask and that’s why he remembered them. Or maybe he was remembering Jesus’ answers and then thought back to which questions had provoked each one. Either way, John is painting a unique picture of that evening. The disciples were confused, scared, insecure, and a bit intimidated.

Father, thank you for these 11 men. Thank you that you gave the early church a group of people who were imperfect but cake together to continue the work here on earth. Thank you that one day we will all follow you and go where you will go. Finally, thank you for John taking the time to write all of this down and give it to us.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on November 21, 2018 in John, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — John 1:40-42

15 Nov

John 1:40-42 NASB
[40] One of the two who heard John speak and followed Him, was Andrew, Simon Peter’s brother. [41] He found first his own brother Simon and said to him, “We have found the Messiah” (which translated means Christ). [42] He brought him to Jesus. Jesus looked at him and said, “You are Simon the son of John; you shall be called Cephas” (which is translated Peter).

Dear God, going through John in the way I’ve been going through the other Gospels is going to be interesting. His telling of the story has an entirely different pattern and feel. I know that the other three are considered the Synoptic Gospels because they track together fairly well and John doesn’t follow their outline, but I noticed something else this morning as I skimmed through the first eight chapters. I noticed that John focuses on different things within the stories. For example, this is the only time he mentions Jesus recruiting any of the disciples. Also, he mentions more Passovers than just the last one when Jesus was crucified, and he really gives us some insight into just how confused the disciples were most of the time.

In the case of this story, we get a little better look at Andrew. We learn that he was already looking at John the Baptist and having spiritual stirrings. It was him who was hungry for more of you. He was the reason Peter found Jesus. And then it was Peter in whom Jesus saw the potential to be the rock.

So many times, we want to be the person of note. We want to be Peter. We want to be the person people look to. At least, I confess that is true of myself. But there are times when you are calling us to play a small yet pivotal role. When Jesus gathers his top disciples it almost always seems to be Peter and then the brothers James and John. Andrew, even though he is Peter’s brother, isn’t part of that special group. That wasn’t the role he had to play in the story. He was critical to this whole thing, but in a low-key way. I like how John was careful to let us know about Andrew while telling us something important about Peter too.

Father, there are time you call me to be a point person, times you call me to be a member of the team, times you call me to be a connector between others, and then times I am to stay out of it and let others do your work because you have something else for me to do. Help me to be sensitive at all times to what you are calling me to do. And thank you for how you used Andrew in this story. We all owe him a debt.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on November 15, 2018 in John, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — Luke 22:39-46

11 Nov

Luke 22:39-46
39 Then, accompanied by the disciples, Jesus left the upstairs room and went as usual to the Mount of Olives. 40 There he told them, “Pray that you will not give in to temptation.”
41 He walked away, about a stone’s throw, and knelt down and prayed, 42 “Father, if you are willing, please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.” 43 Then an angel from heaven appeared and strengthened him. 44 He prayed more fervently, and he was in such agony of spirit that his sweat fell to the ground like great drops of blood.
45 At last he stood up again and returned to the disciples, only to find them asleep, exhausted from grief. 46 “Why are you sleeping?” he asked them. “Get up and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation.”

Dear God, I was listening to a sermon earlier today about prayer. The pastor was going through the Lord’s Prayer and how it is a model how to pray. Kind of an outline, if you will. It includes worship, a desire for your will, requests for provision and forgiveness, and an acknowledgment of your sovereignty. The part I just left out is the part about temptation. Jesus tells us to ask that you would keep us from temptation and deliver us from evil. It’s interesting that that is His encouragement here–“Pray that you will not give in to temptation.”

Now whenever I think of temptation, I usually think of the big things: lust, greed, lying to protect myself, etc. But I think the temptations Jesus is referring to here are much more insidious and lethal because they are silent killers. I think Jesus is referring to the temptation that he is feeling in the moment–that His will would supersede your will. Jesus didn’t want to go through what was in front of Him, but He knew He had to in order to accomplish your will.

So how am I tempted throughout the day? Sure, lust, greed, and those other things enter into the picture for me, but I also get tempted by lethargy. I get tempted by wanting to entertain myself and have self-indulgent respite. I want things to be about me. I want the world to bend to allowing for my comfort.

Father, help me to recognize the temptations for what they are and to die to myself in my pursuit of you. Jesus implores Peter, James, John and the others to pray against falling into temptation. And they faced all kinds including aggrandizement (who is the greatest?) and self-preservation (what would happen over the next few days). I am no different. So I don’t know how this works and how you keep me from temptation, but I pray that you will deliver me from evil and help me to live purely by your will.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on November 11, 2018 in Luke, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — Luke 22:7-13

09 Nov

Luke 22:7-13 NASB
[7] Then came the first day of Unleavened Bread on which the Passover lamb had to be sacrificed. [8] And Jesus sent Peter and John, saying, “Go and prepare the Passover for us, so that we may eat it.” [9] They said to Him, “Where do You want us to prepare it?” [10] And He said to them, “When you have entered the city, a man will meet you carrying a pitcher of water; follow him into the house that he enters. [11] And you shall say to the owner of the house, ‘The Teacher says to you, “Where is the guest room in which I may eat the Passover with My disciples?”‘ [12] And he will show you a large, furnished upper room; prepare it there.” [13] And they left and found everything just as He had told them; and they prepared the Passover.

Dear God, I think that Luke is the only Gospel to record that it was Peter and John who were tasked with setting up the Passover meal. What a weird time this must have been for them. I wonder just how dense the fog was around their eyes.

I suppose I need to explain that. Several years ago, my wife and I were going through a proverbial valley that was unlike anything we had experienced before. There were times when we couldn’t tell up from down. We ended up referencing the title to Robert McNamara’s book The Fog of War often to describe our inability to really see, assess, and respond to what was happening around us. I wonder how much Peter and John we’re experiencing that kind of fog over these last few weeks.

The nice thing here is that you laid out a path for them and made it straight. Jesus gave the. The assignment and they had the courage to admit they didn’t know where to set things up. They had a choice in that moment. They could be intimidated by Jesus and just go out on their own or they could ask for His direction. They chose to ask and he gave them a path they could follow.

Father, in the midst of my own life, even when I don’t understand the path in front of me, please make it straight. Reveal it to me. Help me to see everything around me with your eyes—no, I don’t think that’s always the right thing to say because your eyes often see more than I need to know. Help me to hear your still small voice and to see what you need me to see. Help me to know how to respond. And of course, that leads me to the serenity prayer. In those moments, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on November 9, 2018 in Luke, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — Luke 9:51-56

06 Nov

Luke 9:51-56 NASB
[51] When the days were approaching for His ascension, He was determined to go to Jerusalem; [52] and He sent messengers on ahead of Him, and they went and entered a village of the Samaritans to make arrangements for Him. [53] But they did not receive Him, because He was traveling toward Jerusalem. [54] When His disciples James and John saw this, they said, “Lord, do You want us to command fire to come down from heaven and consume them?” [55] But He turned and rebuked them, [and said, “You do not know what kind of spirit you are of; [56] for the Son of Man did not come to destroy men’s lives, but to save them.”] And they went on to another village.

Dear God, this is a story I had forgotten related directly to James and John. If you’d have asked me, “Who wanted to send down fire on the Samaritans for rejecting Jesus?” I would have guessed Peter. But as I look at it, Peter’s mistakes are usually just foolish and not as much about judging others as just fighting his internal insecurities. He’s also very impetuous. But John seems to like rebuking people. He rebuked the guy casting out demons. Now he’s rebuking Samaritans for their ignorance. His insecurities seem to drive him to elevate himself over others through self-righteous anger.

I’ve certainly seen this in myself from time to time, but the more tile I spend meeting people from all walks of life, and the more I get in touch with my own weaknesses and the grace you offer me in spite of them, the more I am willing to give it to others. I think this is part of John’s journey too. In his letters later, he will write a lot about love, but I can’t see him writing all of that at this point.

Father, complete the work you have started in me. Thank you for loving me, for forgiving me, and for giving me opportunities to grow closer to you. I’m sorry I fail. I’m sorry I’ve let you down over and over again. Thank you for being a God who didn’t destroy the Samaritans that day for their foolish ignorance, and for not destroying me now.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on November 6, 2018 in Luke, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — Luke 9:46-50

05 Nov

Luke 9:46-50 NASB
[46] An argument started among them as to which of them might be the greatest. [47] But Jesus, knowing what they were thinking in their heart, took a child and stood him by His side, [48] and said to them, “Whoever receives this child in My name receives Me, and whoever receives Me receives Him who sent Me; for the one who is least among all of you, this is the one who is great.” [49] John answered and said, “Master, we saw someone casting out demons in Your name; and we tried to prevent him because he does not follow along with us.” [50] But Jesus said to him, “Do not hinder him; for he who is not against you is for you.”

Dear God, my thought when I read this was, Oh, John, don’t try so hard to impress him.

There were times when Jesus was impressed by people, but rarely were they trying to impress him at the time. The faith of the centurion impressed him. I recently read the passage about the scribe who asked Jesus what the greatest commandment was. Jesus told him he wasn’t far from your kingdom. But in this case, if the story played out as Luke describes, John’s telling Jesus about the guy they rebuked is a response to Jesus getting onto them about who is the greatest. It’s almost like John missed the whole lesson of what Jesus said about being humble and serving. He was too focused on Jesus being impressed.

Of course, I can fall into this trap. I really want people to be impressed with me. I always have. Is that a need to please? No, I think it’s more an insecurity that’s buried down there within me that needs the approval of others to be quenched. But then it’s never really quenched.

Father, help be to serve without needing to use my service for recognition and adulation. Help me to welcome all and to be willing to sacrifice my own ego and comfort for someone to whom you are calling me to serve. Give me insight and discernment. Give me ears to hear. And I am sorry for the self pity that often drives me into selfishness and neediness.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on November 5, 2018 in Luke, Peter and John

 

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Peter & John — Luke 9:28-36

31 Oct

Luke 9:28-36 NASB
[28] Some eight days after these sayings, He took along Peter and John and James, and went up on the mountain to pray. [29] And while He was praying, the appearance of His face became different, and His clothing became white and gleaming. [30] And behold, two men were talking with Him; and they were Moses and Elijah, [31] who, appearing in glory, were speaking of His departure which He was about to accomplish at Jerusalem. [32] Now Peter and his companions had been overcome with sleep; but when they were fully awake, they saw His glory and the two men standing with Him. [33] And as these were leaving Him, Peter said to Jesus, “Master, it is good for us to be here; let us make three tabernacles: one for You, and one for Moses, and one for Elijah”-not realizing what he was saying. [34] While he was saying this, a cloud formed and began to overshadow them; and they were afraid as they entered the cloud. [35] Then a voice came out of the cloud, saying, “This is My Son, My Chosen One; listen to Him!” [36] And when the voice had spoken, Jesus was found alone. And they kept silent, and reported to no one in those days any of the things which they had seen.

Dear God, it seems like this telling of the transfiguration is a little more detailed than the others. I’d need to go back and check to see if the others do this, but I don’t remember the little details like eight days later and being afraid walking into the fog. I don’t even remember the part where they fell asleep and woke up to see everything happening.

It says that “they were afraid” about the cloud. Did that include Jesus, Moses, and Elijah, or was it Just Peter, James, and John? I would imagine at that point that Jesus, Moses and Elijah knew what was happening and were at peace.

I wonder if this felt like a dream to the three disciples. To wake up and see such an extraordinary sight. I’ve talked about Peter’s response before so I don’t know that I need to cover it again. It’s just an amazing thing that I’m convinced was meant to strengthen Jesus for the home stretch leading up to the crucifixion.

Father, give me what I need so that I can be strengthened to do your will. Give me courage. Give me strength. Give me love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness, faithfulness, kindness, and self control. Let your fruit come to bear in my life.

In Jesus’ name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on October 31, 2018 in Luke, Peter and John

 

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