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Ecclesiastes 7


A good reputation is more valuable than costly perfume.
    And the day you die is better than the day you are born.
Better to spend your time at funerals than at parties.
    After all, everyone dies—
    so the living should take this to heart.
Sorrow is better than laughter,
    for sadness has a refining influence on us.
A wise person thinks a lot about death,
    while a fool thinks only about having a good time.

Better to be criticized by a wise person
    than to be praised by a fool.
A fool’s laughter is quickly gone,
    like thorns crackling in a fire.
    This also is meaningless.

Extortion turns wise people into fools,
    and bribes corrupt the heart.

Finishing is better than starting.
    Patience is better than pride.

Control your temper,
    for anger labels you a fool.

10 Don’t long for “the good old days.”
    This is not wise.

11 Wisdom is even better when you have money.
    Both are a benefit as you go through life.
12 Wisdom and money can get you almost anything,
    but only wisdom can save your life.

13 Accept the way God does things,
    for who can straighten what he has made crooked?
14 Enjoy prosperity while you can,
    but when hard times strike, realize that both come from God.
    Remember that nothing is certain in this life.

15 I have seen everything in this meaningless life, including the death of good young people and the long life of wicked people. 16 So don’t be too good or too wise! Why destroy yourself? 17 On the other hand, don’t be too wicked either. Don’t be a fool! Why die before your time? 18 Pay attention to these instructions, for anyone who fears God will avoid both extremes.

19 One wise person is stronger than ten leading citizens of a town!

20 Not a single person on earth is always good and never sins.

21 Don’t eavesdrop on others—you may hear your servant curse you. 22 For you know how often you yourself have cursed others.

23 I have always tried my best to let wisdom guide my thoughts and actions. I said to myself, “I am determined to be wise.” But it didn’t work. 24 Wisdom is always distant and difficult to find. 25 I searched everywhere, determined to find wisdom and to understand the reason for things. I was determined to prove to myself that wickedness is stupid and that foolishness is madness.

26 I discovered that a seductive woman is a trap more bitter than death. Her passion is a snare, and her soft hands are chains. Those who are pleasing to God will escape her, but sinners will be caught in her snare.

27 “This is my conclusion,” says the Teacher. “I discovered this after looking at the matter from every possible angle. 28 Though I have searched repeatedly, I have not found what I was looking for. Only one out of a thousand men is virtuous, but not one woman! 29 But I did find this: God created people to be virtuous, but they have each turned to follow their own downward path.”

Ecclesiastes 7

Dear God, this was a tough read this morning. A couple of things were really good, but some of it I receive with skepticism.

Here’s what I liked. Verse 13:

13 Accept the way God does things,
    for who can straighten what he has made crooked?

This has been a hard lesson for me to learn. I have had times in my life when I was really disappointed in you. I thought I had done my part, but you didn’t do yours. But then I got to a point where I just submitted to a life that isn’t mine anyway. I do my best in each moment. And sometimes I fail. Sometimes I make mistakes. Sometimes I am sinful. But you know my heart. You know my efforts and my intentions. So why is the path so crooked. Well, the truth is that crooked paths strengthen me. They strengthen us all. They also can force us in a direction we didn’t think we wanted to go. We wanted to go straight ahead and keep pressing on, but perhaps you have something for us to accomplish by turning right and then left. Perhaps even backtracking a little. Instead of trying to straighten the path, it is best to just worshipfully walk it in faith.

The first half of verse 28 reminds me of the U2 song “I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For.” 28 Though I have searched repeatedly, I have not found what I was looking for. Frankly, I always struggled even with the U2 song. I think perhaps the song makes the same mistake Solomon makes here. He is looking for this peace that comes from feeling significant. He is making his own life and what he does with it an idol.

Father, idols are not worthy of our worship. Not even the idol of my own life. And I really believe it–that my life can be an idol to myself. I watched a video at Rotary on Monday of a woman in our club who went to visit a place in Tanzania where our club has been part of putting water catchment systems and bathrooms in schools. The children in the video were absolutely precious. They had so little. But as I looked at them and wanted to pity them I couldn’t help but think about our children here and the rampant anxiety and mental health issues they are currently facing. Who’s to say that those children in Tanzania are worse off than our children in the grand scheme of things? When you look at them, are they really less fortunate, or are they, perhaps, more fortunate? I don’t know. But I know that I want to worship you today. I want to consider my life worth nothing to me. I want to be part of your plan to bring your kingdom and your will into this current earth. Show me how to do that.

I offer this to you in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Posted by on October 16, 2024 in Ecclesiastes

 

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Chronic Dissatisfaction

From Simply Sacred by Gary Thomas – 11/21

Dear God, I started this a few days ago, but never got to come back and finish it. Okay, I never prioritized making the time to come back and finish it. But now it’s the morning after Thanksgiving, and I am wanting to spend a little bit of time with you before I get going with my day.

My wife and I were talking about a month ago about our “bucket list.” The list of things we want to do or places we want to visit or things we want to accomplish before we “kick the bucket.” It’s odd, but I told her I have no such list. If I were to be on my death bed right now, the only thing that I think would be on my mind is how it would impact my wife and children. I don’t think I would have any places I wish I had gone, things I wish I had done, or accomplishments left unfinished. Well, I take that back. I have a few writing projects I’ve started but haven’t finished. I really do need to focus and get those completed. I just might feel bad if I didn’t finish those. But those are also things I think you’ve put on my heart to work on. But as far as experiences and places visited, there just isn’t anything in that realm that I care about.

I wish I could say that I feel that way because I am a great Christian and I don’t have a need for travel or experiences. But the truth is that I’m kind of lazy and not very ambitious. However, I do think there is a contentment in my spirit that comes from your Spirit ministering to me as I get to know you and spend time with you. I think part of it might be 1.) you have unreasonably blessed me with a wife who is a delight, and 2.) you have given me a life that pretty much wants for nothing even though I would consider myself solidly middle class to lower-middle class. But you have given me so much, it makes it easier to accept what I have. With that being said, I know people who have what I have and more, and they are still looking.

That makes me think of the U2 song “I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For.”

Even in the last verse, when they acknowledge they haven’t even found what they are looking for even in you:

I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
But yes I’m still running

You broke the bonds
And you loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Oh my shame
You know I believe it

But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for

This used to really bother me about this song. I know Bono is a Christian and believes in you. Where is this continued search still coming from after he found you? And I don’t know exactly what he means by this, but one thing it could mean is that it’s one thing to know this about you, and even believe it, but it’s another thing to develop a relationship with you that will allow you to minister to me and develop my soul.

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, I offer you this day. I thank you for ministering peace to my soul. I confess the times when I allow my heart to dwell on the cares of this world and I don’t weed the soil of my heart well. I am sorry for that. That is when my heart is unstilled. So help me to enjoy you today and to embrace fully, warts and all, the life and path you have given me to walk.

I pray this joyously as your servant and worshipper,

Amen

 

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