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Psalm 119:9-16 (Beth)

Beth

How can a young person stay pure?
    By obeying your word.
10 I have tried hard to find you—
    don’t let me wander from your commands.
11 I have hidden your word in my heart,
    that I might not sin against you.
12 I praise you, O Lord;
    teach me your decrees.
13 I have recited aloud
    all the regulations you have given us.
14 I have rejoiced in your laws
    as much as in riches.
15 I will study your commandments
    and reflect on your ways.
16 I will delight in your decrees
    and not forget your word.

Psalm 119:9-16

Dear God, I’m here again with Psalm 119. I’ll confess that I’m not sure I’ll end up doing this in 22 consecutive days because I found myself kind of dreading doing this prayer to you this morning, and I don’t want to dread praying to you through these journals. So we’ll see. But for this morning, I want to dive into the second section of this psalm and see what you have for me. Holy Spirit, sit with me now and speak to me. Give me eyes to see and ears to hear.

  • How can a young person stay pure? By obeying your word. – Does this indicate that the author of this psalm is young? Maybe. Now that I think about it, as a psalm of orientation (as opposed to disorientation or reorientation) it makes me think that it is written by someone who hasn’t run into as many of the trials that come with life yet. I’m not as much referring to this one verse, but the rest of the psalm. In the case of this verse, however, the author seems to be talking about staying pure, and obeying your word is certainly foundational for that to happen.
  • 10 I have tried hard to find you—don’t let me wander from your commands. – This makes me think of the last verse for “Come Thou Fount:” Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it. Prone to leave the one I love. Here’s my heart, Lord, take and seal it. Seal it for thy courts above. Why am I prone to wander? Why did I even dread sitting with you in prayer this morning? Why, oh why?
  • 11 I have hidden your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you. – I will say that the more I spend time with you and give your Spirit room to grow in me the less I find myself sinning. Oh, I sin. Don’t get me wrong. But not nearly as much. I am much more loving than I used to be, and I can see it growing almost every day.
  • 12 I praise you, O Lord; teach me your decrees. – Continue to teach me. Teach me through these times. Teach me through people you raise up in my life. Give me ears to hear. Help me to not see someone and prejudicially assume they have nothing to teach me. Or that I am more mature, older, smarter, etc. than them because they truth is I am a flawed, ignorant man who has a lot to learn.
  • 13 I have recited aloud all the regulations you have given us. – I wonder if I should memorize scripture more (or at all). I am certainly willing to share with others what you are teaching me. Should I be doing more to engrain it in my heart?
  • 14 I have rejoiced in your laws as much as in riches. – Oh, I hope it’s more than in riches. Now, this is easy for me to say as I sit on vacation because it took some amount of riches to be here. I know a lot of people who cannot afford something like this. But I certainly don’t pursue riches. But how much do I rejoice in your laws? I think I do. I hope I do.
  • 15 I will study your commandments and reflect on your ways. – This is what it’s all about. Reflecting your ways. I want to impact the world as much as I can through my little life, but I want to do it as your servant and your child. I want to do it through my love for you. Help me to share you better.
  • 16 I will delight in your decrees and not forget your word. – I would say the theme for Beth is about learning your word and reflecting it/you to the world. Help me to do that today.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 23, 2025 in Psalm 119, Psalms

 

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Psalm 119: 1-8 (Aleph)

Aleph

Joyful are people of integrity,
    who follow the instructions of the Lord.
Joyful are those who obey his laws
    and search for him with all their hearts.
They do not compromise with evil,
    and they walk only in his paths.
You have charged us
    to keep your commandments carefully.
Oh, that my actions would consistently
    reflect your decrees!
Then I will not be ashamed
    when I compare my life with your commands.
As I learn your righteous regulations,
    I will thank you by living as I should!
I will obey your decrees.
    Please don’t give up on me!

Psalm 119:1-8

Dear God, I want to continue this journey through Psalm 119 by doubling back and starting at the beginning. As a reminder to myself, I went back and read the description of this psalm: This psalm is a Hebrew acrostic poem; there are twenty-two stanzas, one for each successive letter of the Hebrew alphabet. Each of the eight verses within each stanza begins with the Hebrew letter named in its heading. So I’m at the beginning. It’s going to take me three weeks to get through these if I do one section a day. That’s good. I need to somehow sit with this piece of art in bite-sized chunks so I can see what you might have for me through it. So were we go, verse by verse:

  • Joyful are people of integrity, who follow the instructions of the Lord. – My first thought when I read this first verse was that this would be a psalm of “orientation” (as opposed to “disorientation” and “reorientation”). Life is good. Logically, this should make sense. It doesn’t always work this way. Sometimes I can have integrity and follow your instructions and still experience sorrow. But for the most part, this is true. If I don’t follow your instructions and have integrity, My life will, at a minimum, ring hollow, and, at a maximum, lead to my empty destruction.
  • Joyful are those who obey his laws and search for him with all their hearts. – Searching for you with all of my heart is an interesting concept. Do I search for you? Is that what I’m doing even now as I type this prayer to you? Am I searching for you? Is that what I did yesterday when I listened to the instruction by N.T. Wright or listened to Christian music? What does it look like to search for you? That’s a good question.
  • They do not compromise with evil, and they walk only in his paths. – Oh, my! What does it mean to compromise with evil? I am sure I compromise with evil every day. I wonder what the real difference is between compromising with evil and living in the world but not of it. There are things about this world I enjoy. To quote Rich Mullins in his song “Land of my Sojourn:” Nobody tells you when you get born here how much you’ll come to love it and how you’ll never belong here, so I’ll call you my country, but I’ll be lonely for my home. There are some things the world offers that I love. Mainly in the area of music and movies/television. Do I cross a line of compromising with evil when I indulge in some of it? I suppose it depends on what the evil looks like and what compromising looks like. There is a lot of secular stuff that is not evil. Help me to know how to walk only in your path.
  • You have charged us to keep your commandments carefully. – This is interesting because all of us pick and choose which commandments to follow and which ones to ignore. When I read The Year of Living Biblically last year, it was a good reminder of just how selective I am with your commands. And I don’t think that’s necessarily wrong because Jesus introduced a freedom from following some of the laws. But what I really want to do is look at the Sermon on the Mount and consider Jesus’s admonition to obey the law to its fullest spirit and not just its most minimal letter: “You have heard it said…, but I say…”
  • Oh, that my actions would consistently reflect your decrees! – One of my biggest desires is that my actions would reflect who I am in you. That I would be the same person in the depths of my heart that I show people publicly. I know I wrote about this a few weeks ago, but what pleased me most about the DISC personality analysis I did a few weeks ago was the consistency between who others say I am vs. how I see myself vs. who I am in a crisis. The only real difference was that, in a crisis, I leaned even harder into who I am. The big question is, do people see me reflecting your decrees and who you are through who I am? Oh, how I hope so.
  • Then I will not be ashamed when I compare my life with your commands. – There is something to be said for a clear conscience. I don’t like it when I feel guilt for something. Or I have a secret of which I’m ashamed. I’m convinced that secrets of which we are ashamed is the crux of how Satan controls us. Help me to live with a clear conscience. Honestly, I think living with a clear conscience is the best way to be consistent between my public persona and who I am in my most private moments.
  • As I learn your righteous regulations, I will thank you by living as I should! – How can I ever thank you enough? How can I ever tell you I love you enough? How can I ever repay you for everything you’ve done for me? The answer to all three of those questions is that I can’t. But one thing I can do is do my best to reflect you to the world and not bring shame on you. Oh, please help me to do this.
  • I will obey your decrees. Please don’t give up on me! – I just love these last words: “Please don’t give up on me!” Yes, Father, I will fail you. I will anger you. I will disappoint you. I will hurt you and others. But please keep with me. Please don’t give up on me. Help me to continue, even in this day, to obey your decrees, love you with all I have, love everyone you put in my path, and represent you well to a world that needs you. Please, don’t give up on me.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 22, 2025 in Psalm 119, Psalms

 

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Psalm 119:25-32 (Daleth)

Daleth

25 I lie in the dust;
    revive me by your word.
26 I told you my plans, and you answered.
    Now teach me your decrees.
27 Help me understand the meaning of your commandments,
    and I will meditate on your wonderful deeds.
28 I weep with sorrow;
    encourage me by your word.
29 Keep me from lying to myself;
    give me the privilege of knowing your instructions.
30 I have chosen to be faithful;
    I have determined to live by your regulations.
31 I cling to your laws.
    Lord, don’t let me be put to shame!
32 I will pursue your commands,
    for you expand my understanding.

Psalm 119:25-32

Dear God, there is so much depth in this section of Psalm 119, I think what I want to do is break it up verse by verse and sit with each one.

  • 25 I lie in the dust; revive me by your word. – Whenever I try to do it myself I end up back at myself which leads to death. Just returning me to dust. Only your presence and relationship with you can lift me beyond my fallen humanity and into what you originally created me to be in Genesis 1. Fill me with your word. Your presence. Your Holy Spirit.
  • 26 I told you my plans, and you answered. Now teach me your decrees. – My plans must seem so silly to you. Even now, I have things I want to do and accomplish professionally as well as privately. I want to be part of the alumni group for Christian Men’s Life Skills. I want to grow the facility we are in and work to touch the depths of people’s lives and not just the surface. I could go on and on. I have these plans. But the truth is, I am so fragile and ignorant. I don’t know what the next moment holds, much less the next day, week, month, year, or decade. Help me to take my eyes off of my plans and help me to simply learn more of you and your decrees in this moment.
  • 27 Help me understand the meaning of your commandments, and I will meditate on your wonderful deeds. – I wonder what the psalmist meant by understanding the meaning of your commandments. I know where my head went. My head went to not just spouting off your laws and commandments at people and chastising them for not obeying you, but loving them through the meaning of your commandments. Don’t just say, “Don’t lie!” but instead talk to them about how the truth is good for them and lies harm them and others. The why. Don’t just say, “Take a Sabbath day!” but help them to understand the need for rest that you have baked into each of us. This goes into every issue the church faces today, including the LGBTQ issue. I’m frustrated with the American church in that it spouts off on the command and doesn’t seem to understand its why. When they do that, it just comes across as mean and judgmental. Help me to understand the meaning of your commandments.
  • 28 I weep with sorrow; encourage me by your word. – How did the psalmist understand the meaning of your word? For me, I am interpreting it as not only scripture, but the still small voice you use to speak to me within my soul as I spend time with you. It is the words of Christians who speak to me. It is what I read or listen to, both secular and spiritual. It is the discernment the Holy Spirit gives me as I take in the world around me. And there are times I weep with sorrow. Just two weeks ago, I was talking to my wife about a shared pain we both have, and I just started crying on her. Sorrow is in me. Help me to be comforted and encouraged by your word.
  • 29 Keep me from lying to myself; give me the privilege of knowing your instructions. – This is so good! Keep me from lying to myself. Powerful! Yes, I lie to myself. Sometimes, I take my own thoughts and agenda and ascribe your word to them and justify them as your will for me. Sometimes, I get defensive and self-righteous and tell myself that I’ve been wronged and I have rights that must seek justice. But in those moments I’m lying to myself. Teach me and help me to know your instructions.
  • 30 I have chosen to be faithful; I have determined to live by your regulations. – It almost seems like this verse should have come before the last one. I do choose faithfulness, but please help me to keep from lying to myself. And teach me to be disciplined to follow you.
  • 31 I cling to your laws. Lord, don’t let me be put to shame! – Lord, if I am to be put to shame, let it be for clinging to your laws. If that is the shame I experience then I will gladly accept it. But help me to not let go of your laws and find shame down the path of my own sin. That’s what I desperately don’t want, but I don’t want it for your sake. I don’t want to bring shame upon you. While I’m thinking about it, give me mercy for those who do claim you but follow their own path into sin. Help me to know how to help them and love them back into you.
  • 32 I will pursue your commands, for you expand my understanding. – I need you. The only way I can make my small, small, small life count for the few year I have on this earth is to lean into you, get to know you and become like you as much as I can, and then let you use me how you will. But to do that, I need to not only pursue your commands, but I need to do it with the spirit of expanding my understanding of you and then letting that flow into the world around me.

Father, I got a lot out of that this morning. Thank you for this one section of this psalm. I might just go back and do the same thing, section by section, for this whole psalm on this vacation I’m currently on. Walk with me today. Walk with my wife and our friends today. Watch over and heal those I love. Not just physically, but mentally, emotionally, and spiritually as well.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 21, 2025 in Psalm 119, Psalms

 

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Michael W. Smith Worship

Dear God, I wanted to just have some Christian music playing while I got ready for church this morning, so I got on YouTube and started looking through the music section. I happened upon this concert by Michael W. Smith in Canada in 2002. I remember when this album came out. It was so successful they did a volume 2 of it. And I really liked it.

It’s funny how judgmental I can be, like I’m all that or I have it all figured out. I’m so sorry. My first response when I saw it this morning was to react negatively to all of the overproduction. Yuck. But then the Holy Spirit whispered to me, “Exactly what is your problem? There is an arena of people, thousands of people, earnestly worshipping me as best as they know how. Just how you worship me as best you know how. Their worship isn’t perfect. Your worship isn’t perfect. But all of it delights me. It is a sweet fragrance to me.” So I sank into it and came in and out of my worship as I ironed my shirt, shaved, and just got ready for church. It was a good experience. And I appreciate Michael. I think he’s a good, earnest man. I think he’s a lover and worshipper of you. He’s also a brilliant musician–especially as a pianist. And his notoriety led others to join him that evening 23 years ago to worship you.

Father, I know my worship is flawed. I know my prayer life is flawed. I’d like to think I know just how inadequate I am before you, but I still think I oversell myself and undersell you. But you smile at me. You have mercy on me. You ask me to love you, which I do. You ask me to love others and have mercy on them, which I try to do. I just want to be who you need me to be today. Walk with me, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 20, 2025 in Hymns and Songs

 

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Psalm 119:1-8

Psalm 119[a]

Aleph

Joyful are people of integrity,
    who follow the instructions of the Lord.
Joyful are those who obey his laws
    and search for him with all their hearts.
They do not compromise with evil,
    and they walk only in his paths.
You have charged us
    to keep your commandments carefully.
Oh, that my actions would consistently
    reflect your decrees!
Then I will not be ashamed
    when I compare my life with your commands.
As I learn your righteous regulations,
    I will thank you by living as I should!
I will obey your decrees.
    Please don’t give up on me!

Dear God, verse 7 was the verse of the day on Bible Gateway, but it actually really works for this psalm to be a scripture I look at for today because I am going to the Poetry Society of Texas Annual Summer Conference tonight in Denton with my wife and this psalm has a special poetic dimension to it. The note that goes with the [a] next to the psalm title says, “This psalm is a Hebrew acrostic poem; there are twenty-two stanzas, one for each successive letter of the Hebrew alphabet. Each of the eight verses within each stanza begins with the Hebrew letter named in its heading.” I’m not going to do all 22 stanzas this morning, but I thought I would at least look at the stanza that includes verse 7.

Now, back to this passage. I participated in the graduation for the Christian Men’s Life Skills class last night, and it was remarkable. What has blown me away is the relationships between the men and how much some of them are clinging to this and to you right now. They are hungry and they need fed. The seeds planted are looking for good soil in which to take root. These verses reflect the state of many of their hearts right now. Of course the rains will fall. The wind will blow. When they come, will they come against lives that are established with deep roots? I pray for their roots right now. I pray for their soil. I pray that you will also help me to weed my own soil. Help your seeds to find good soil in me and develop deep roots.

Father, I have the words to “I Need Thee Every Hour” and its chorus going through my head: “I need thee, oh I need thee. Every hour I need thee. O bless me now, my Savior. I come to thee.” Bless me, my savior. Bless these men. Bless their families. We need thee every hour.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 18, 2025 in Psalms

 

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Romans 1:16-17

16 For I am not ashamed of this Good News about Christ. It is the power of God at work, saving everyone who believes—the Jew first and also the Gentile. 17 This Good News tells us how God makes us right in his sight. This is accomplished from start to finish by faith. As the Scriptures say, “It is through faith that a righteous person has life.”

Romans 1:16-17

Dear God, it is so easy for us to make the “Good News” so complicated. I think the tendency of the modern American Christian is to say it is that we get to go to heaven and escape hell. But that’s not what you’re offering. You are just inviting us to use you for our benefit. The Good News tells us that faith in Jesus and everything he taught makes us right in your eyes. And following Jesus in faith and being right in your eyes brings us life. It’s right there. And on the other side of the veil, eternity with you is our destiny, and that’s great. And I don’t know what they cut line for eternity with you is.

I don’t know where you draw those lines. But I know that what you’re offering me and all of us is life now. If I ignore you and just walk through my life as best as I can in my own power then I don’t know what will happen to my soul. Jesus was a little vague on how you’ll decide those things. He said in Matthew 25:31-46 that some of us who claim to know you don’t know you, and some who didn’t realize they were loving you were loving you all along by loving the least of these.

Father, help me to be absolutely loving to everyone today. Help me to see every interaction with everyone who crosses my path as an opportunity to love. Give me ears to hear. Give me eyes to see. Help me to be slow to speak and quick to listen. Help me to be curious and not judgmental. Help me to offer you to those who need you. Help me to recognize those you are calling me to serve. Help me to be wise, shrewd, and discerning. Holy Spirit, speak to me today. Help me to hear you and your counsel. Give me the life Jesus promised and Paul offered.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 17, 2025 in Romans

 

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Colossians 2:8-10

Don’t let anyone capture you with empty philosophies and high-sounding nonsense that come from human thinking and from the spiritual powers of this world, rather than from Christ. For in Christ lives all the fullness of God in a human body. 10 So you also are complete through your union with Christ, who is the head over every ruler and authority.

Colossians 2:8-10

Dear God, I was listening to the Geoff Moore and the Distance song “Tell Me Again” this morning while I was getting ready for work, and it was talking about some of the Bible stories from the Old Testament that I love so much, and I got to thinking about Daniel and then Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego. Are these the most flawlessly-portrayed Bible characters? Okay, now that I think about it, there are a lot of Bible characters for whom we don’t really get to see their weaknesses. Isaiah. Even Paul after he’s converted on the road to Damascus seems pretty perfect. But all those guys from Genesis all the way through 2 Kings are pretty flawed. But when you get into the exile and you look at Daniel and the other three and how they worshipped and loved you through difficult times, even up to the threat of death, is really impressive.

But I know that I know that I know that if I were to tell any one of those four men that I perceived them to be as good and holy of people as there are in the Bible they would roll their eyes, laugh, and tell me just how flawed they were. They weren’t even close to being who they were designed to be. I just didn’t get those stories. In some way, I just get the Facebook version of their lives. The highlights. The greatest hits. And if someone were to see my greatest hits only then it would look pretty cool too. But there is a lot of crud that fills in between those highlights. And that’s okay in the sense that I don’t have to be perfect or even better than David to be good enough for you. In fact, the more time I spent with David the last few months working with the men from Christian Men’s Life Skills the more I learned that there really wasn’t that much about him I found honorable. He lied a lot. He killed a lot. But I think what made him different is that he leaned into you in his failings. He prayed. He sang and wrote psalms/poetry. And he didn’t take shortcuts to the throne. He waited on you. Ironically, I think he had my problem in that he seemed to have a problem with confrontation. He didn’t confront Amnon when he raped Tamar. He didn’t confront Absalom when he killed Amnon. He didn’t confront Joab when he killed Abner. He just kind of let things fester and left some of the confronting (and killing) to Solomon to do later. In fact, now that I think about it, Solomon is different because he wanted peace on all sides on a macro level, but he didn’t mind confronting individuals in front of him.

All of that is to say that this passage by Paul makes it clear that Jesus was different. He wasn’t a good man. He wasn’t a good teacher. He was you incarnate. He was you in the flesh. And somehow, through this reconciliation with you through Jesus, there is this piece of my nature, the core of me, that is whole. While I’m still here in the current earth, I will make mistakes. I will hurt people. I fill frustrate you and grieve you sometimes. But I also walk with this newness about me that, the more I allow it to, exudes your fruit. On a scale of 1-10, I might be a 3, but at least tomorrow I have a chance to be a 3.0001. Just a little more every day.

Father, thank you that you love me through all of this. Thank you that I can be sure that Daniel et. al. were just as flawed as I am. They had amazing faith in their best moments, but I am sure they also had their moments like Elijah where they were calling down fire and being powerful in your name in one moment and then hiding in caves from the king in the next. As a flawed man, I am in good company. Thank you for Jesus. Now, help me to take the mercy you have for me and give it generously to those around me.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 16, 2025 in Colossians

 

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James 1:19-21

19 Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. 20 Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires. 21 So get rid of all the filth and evil in your lives, and humbly accept the word God has planted in your hearts, for it has the power to save your souls.

James 1:19-21

Dear God, be curious, not judgmental. Oh, how I have gotten myself in trouble when I’ve been quick to speak and slow to listen. I can think of some instances at work where I got my dander up (how old does that phrase make me sound?) and decided I was going to make a point and be tough. Almost always–every time–it has backfired on me. I’ve almost always regretted it because I learned something on the back end that made me realize there was more to the story.

Which leads me to the first words I typed here. Be curious, not judgmental. Very few people wake up each day thinking they are going to be selfish and mean to others. There are some people like that out there, but they are 1 out of 100. The other 99, even though what they do might be offensive or mean, think they are doing the right thing. So maybe instead of judging them I should get to know them and understand why they think what they think or do what they do. Maybe I can help them. Or maybe I’m the one who is wrong and they can help me.

Then there is the second part of this paragraph. Get rid of all of the filth in our lives. I can see things that flash in front of me that tempt me. I can feel it happening in real time. I can feel my thoughts want to drift to places of self pity, selfishness, lust, or judgment. The more I can remove the outside stimuli from my life that help plant these weeds in my field the better off I will be.

Father, this is a new day, and I have to make a renewed commitment to following you. So I offer my life to you. I offer my decisions to you. Love through me. Live through me. Let your kingdom come and your will be done on earth as it is in heaven through me. Bless those around me. Heal the sick–physically and emotionally. Care for those who are suffering. Comfort those who are mourning. Strengthen those who are helping. Be God over in Kerrville right now. Be with those people over there who are digging, discovering, and doing an incredible heroes work.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 15, 2025 in James

 

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John 15:1-2

15 “I am the true grapevine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch of mine that doesn’t produce fruit, and he prunes the branches that do bear fruit so they will produce even more. 

John 15:1-2

Dear God, tonight I am teaching on the Parable of the Sower out of Matthew 13, but it’s really something how many agricultural comparisons you made to our relationship with you through your presence in the world as Jesus. In this example, Jesus is our source of your presence in us. He is you and he is our connection to you. And honestly, it doesn’t make sense that you wouldn’t prune off the bad branches. If the new earth was full of people who had no regard for you or goodness in general, how would it be any different than this world?

And what of the pruning? I have a redbud tree in my backyard that we planted from a six-inch sapling. now, it is the tallest redbud tree I’ve every seen. In eight years, my wife has specifically watered it just about every day, and I have pruned it to give it a canopy tall enough for me to walk under. That seems to have pushed it taller and taller. I would guess it is about 20 feet tall now. I don’t know what it would look like if I’d just let it grow with no pruning, but it looks terrific now.

What would I look like if you didn’t prune me. If I just went off in every direction trying to represent you, worship you, and love you, but also having all of this dead stuff hanging onto me. All of this stuff that wasn’t a productive use of my time and energy. Also, the stuff that got knocked off because it was part of the sin I was holding onto and you knew I needed to be humbled and lean into you more.

Father, this is a great analogy. And I am grateful for how you are forming me. I am not there yet. I am not the man I want to be. I am not the man you know I can be. And I still have pain. Please help to make this pain in my life count for my formation and your glory in this world. I have two friends who have lost fathers this week. Please be with each of these women. Love them. Comfort them. Comfort them through their husbands, families, and friends. But comfort them through your Holy Spirit too. I know both of them are earnest worshippers of you. Help them through this pain. And I want to specifically lift up to you a couple that is precious to me that is going through a difficult time with a child. Oh, Father, be merciful. Help them to navigate this difficult path. Show them your love for them. Give them your peace. Give their child your peace. Use this pain to prune and not cast out. Make it count. Be powerful. Be healing. And use it to bring others into your presence as well.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 14, 2025 in John

 

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2 Kings 4:8-37

One day Elisha went to the town of Shunem. A wealthy woman lived there, and she urged him to come to her home for a meal. After that, whenever he passed that way, he would stop there for something to eat.

She said to her husband, “I am sure this man who stops in from time to time is a holy man of God. 10 Let’s build a small room for him on the roof and furnish it with a bed, a table, a chair, and a lamp. Then he will have a place to stay whenever he comes by.”

11 One day Elisha returned to Shunem, and he went up to this upper room to rest. 12 He said to his servant Gehazi, “Tell the woman from Shunem I want to speak to her.” When she appeared, 13 Elisha said to Gehazi, “Tell her, ‘We appreciate the kind concern you have shown us. What can we do for you? Can we put in a good word for you to the king or to the commander of the army?’”

“No,” she replied, “my family takes good care of me.”

14 Later Elisha asked Gehazi, “What can we do for her?”

Gehazi replied, “She doesn’t have a son, and her husband is an old man.”

15 “Call her back again,” Elisha told him. When the woman returned, Elisha said to her as she stood in the doorway, 16 “Next year at this time you will be holding a son in your arms!”

“No, my lord!” she cried. “O man of God, don’t deceive me and get my hopes up like that.”

17 But sure enough, the woman soon became pregnant. And at that time the following year she had a son, just as Elisha had said.

18 One day when her child was older, he went out to help his father, who was working with the harvesters. 19 Suddenly he cried out, “My head hurts! My head hurts!”

His father said to one of the servants, “Carry him home to his mother.”

20 So the servant took him home, and his mother held him on her lap. But around noontime he died. 21 She carried him up and laid him on the bed of the man of God, then shut the door and left him there. 22 She sent a message to her husband: “Send one of the servants and a donkey so that I can hurry to the man of God and come right back.”

23 “Why go today?” he asked. “It is neither a new moon festival nor a Sabbath.”

But she said, “It will be all right.”

24 So she saddled the donkey and said to the servant, “Hurry! Don’t slow down unless I tell you to.”

25 As she approached the man of God at Mount Carmel, Elisha saw her in the distance. He said to Gehazi, “Look, the woman from Shunem is coming. 26 Run out to meet her and ask her, ‘Is everything all right with you, your husband, and your child?’”

“Yes,” the woman told Gehazi, “everything is fine.”

27 But when she came to the man of God at the mountain, she fell to the ground before him and caught hold of his feet. Gehazi began to push her away, but the man of God said, “Leave her alone. She is deeply troubled, but the Lord has not told me what it is.”

28 Then she said, “Did I ask you for a son, my lord? And didn’t I say, ‘Don’t deceive me and get my hopes up’?”

29 Then Elisha said to Gehazi, “Get ready to travel; take my staff and go! Don’t talk to anyone along the way. Go quickly and lay the staff on the child’s face.”

30 But the boy’s mother said, “As surely as the Lord lives and you yourself live, I won’t go home unless you go with me.” So Elisha returned with her.

31 Gehazi hurried on ahead and laid the staff on the child’s face, but nothing happened. There was no sign of life. He returned to meet Elisha and told him, “The child is still dead.”

32 When Elisha arrived, the child was indeed dead, lying there on the prophet’s bed. 33 He went in alone and shut the door behind him and prayed to the Lord. 34 Then he lay down on the child’s body, placing his mouth on the child’s mouth, his eyes on the child’s eyes, and his hands on the child’s hands. And as he stretched out on him, the child’s body began to grow warm again! 35 Elisha got up, walked back and forth across the room once, and then stretched himself out again on the child. This time the boy sneezed seven times and opened his eyes!

36 Then Elisha summoned Gehazi. “Call the child’s mother!” he said. And when she came in, Elisha said, “Here, take your son!” 37 She fell at his feet and bowed before him, overwhelmed with gratitude. Then she took her son in her arms and carried him downstairs.

2 Kings 4:8-37

Dear God, my wife brought this story up to me yesterday, and it’s such a good one. It describes women so well. How much they love their children. What they are willing to do for their children. My wife pointed out to me how willing this woman–albeit a wealthy woman who might have had more courage than a peasant–was to stand up to Elisha and confront him when necessary.

First, she was extremely hospitable to him. She could sense that he was really of you and so she got her husband to build Elisha a special room. I know some women of means, and I can picture them being this compassionate. I can picture them approaching their husbands and saying, “Hey, we need to do this,” and their husbands agreeing.

But then this thing takes on a whole new dimension. The woman carries a great pain and she has it tucked away. There were months and years in her past where she had her hopes up that she would get pregnant, only to be disappointed. It’s a wound she rather keep covered than open and relive. She finally killed her hopes and buried them. She had given up hope. And sometimes that’s the right thing to do. Sometimes the hope is gone, and dealing with that disappointment is difficult. In this case, however, Elisha brought it all up again and she told him flat out that she doesn’t want to be disappointed again.

But she wasn’t disappointed. She had the baby, and he grew enough to be with his father out in the field. We don’t know how many years passed, but she at least had him for a few. And then he had some sort of brain aneurism or something and died. It’s her response to this death that really shows what mothers feel for their children and how nearly all of them will give their last breath for their child.

  • It’s not clear she tells her husband the boy died. It looks like she just tells him she needs to go see Elisha.
  • She heads out and when she gets to him she confronts Elisha with her pain: “Did I ask you for a son, my lord? And didn’t I say, ‘Don’t deceive me and get my hopes up’?”
  • She won’t take anything less from Elisha than what she wants. She could have accepted Gehazi going back with her with Elisha’s staff, but she would accept nothing less than Elisha himself. If her son was dead, she wanted 1.) all of Elisha’s power and connection with you and 2.) if it didn’t work, she wanted him to feel all of her pain along with her.

It wasn’t nearly as critical as this, but our daughter wasn’t speaking at the age of 3. It really concerned us. Our doctor couldn’t see anything wrong and kept explaining it away: “Well, her older brother talks for her.” Stuff like that. But my wife would not accept that answer. She badgered the doctor until he finally referred us to a pediatric ENT who discovered she needed tubes in her ears. As soon as we got that done, she began speaking almost immediately. But who knows how her language would have developed had my wife not been so persistent?

Father, I have pain in my life that I talk about with you often. And I’ve gotten to a point where I have pretty much accepted it. In fact, it’s hard to imagine my life without that pain. But one thing you’ve done for me in this pain is you’ve taught me to think about my personal pain less and less and care for the one who is causing me pain more and more. I heard someone refer to the healing of Bartimaeus recently and how Jesus asked him, “What would you have me do for you?” The person said, “What would you have Jesus do for you?” My answer wasn’t about me. It was for the healing for the ones I love who are in such pain and have been so deeply wounded. So I come to you this morning as the mother went to Elisha and ask that you heal their pain. Heal their wounds. Heal their souls, hearts, minds, and bodies. Raise up people in their lives who can be your voice as you offer them healing. And I have a friend who is really afraid for her son this morning. Answer her prayers, Father. Even in ways she is not expecting. Please, answer her prayers.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen

P.S. I wonder what Elisha’s prayers to you were like while he traveled back to her home. Was he regretting having offered her the child. Did he hear from you in the first place when he offered it, or was all of this out of his own head and Gehazi’s suggestion? Was he repenting to you? And when Gehazi returned and said the staff didn’t work, did Elisha start to empathize with the woman’s pain in a new way? I could probably spend a lot of time thinking through how this experience impacted Elisha as well.

 
 

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