53 After they had crossed the lake, they landed at Gennesaret. They brought the boat to shore 54 and climbed out. The people recognized Jesus at once, 55 and they ran throughout the whole area, carrying sick people on mats to wherever they heard he was. 56 Wherever he went—in villages, cities, or the countryside—they brought the sick out to the marketplaces. They begged him to let the sick touch at least the fringe of his robe, and all who touched him were healed.
Mark 6:53-56
Dear God, Mark/Peter seem to be painting a picture here. I kind of picture Elvis or the Beetles being mobbed by crowds wherever they went, except instead of people just wanting to be close to their celebrity, these people just wanted to be healed or get something miraculous out of Jesus. They were desperate for hope. Fans of Taylor Swift or Bad Bunny just want to be close to power and celebrity. But what’s described here is people just wanting to be set free from pain and disability. And maybe also hoping to get a glimpse of Jesus performing a miracle.
So why am I here today? Am I just here to use you? Am I desperate to get a piece of you so I can have my life be a little better? And if I am, is that the worst thing? I mean, Jesus healed a lot of people who were motivated in this way. So were they wrong to want healing from him even though they didn’t totally understand who he was?
There’s a danger in coming to you selfishly. It become very prosperity gospel-ish. And while I shun the idea of being here because I want something material from you, I do come to you with prayers of supplication for family and friends, my world, my life, etc. But it’s determining what I should expect and not expect from you that is a little tricky. And again, why am I here? Is it to get these things, or is it because I simply love and appreciation you.
It’s also a little like my complicated relationship with donors where I work. Am I in relationship with them so they will give our clinic what I want them to give, or am I in relationship with them to love them as much as possible? I hope it’s the latter. That’s the line I try to walk.
Father, I appreciate the gifts you give, but I want you to know I’d be here even if there was nothing. The closer I get to you and become like you are calling me to be the more at peace I am. So maybe that’s why I’m here. For the peace. Regardless, I’m here to worship you, to ask your favor on those I love, and while I still don’t understand the difference my prayers make for them or myself, Jesus seemed to think it was important to bring those requests to you so I bring them to you now. For my family. For my friends. For my community, state, and country. For our leaders. For our world. For your Church. Help us to be your ambassadors in this world so that others might know you and find the narrow gate.
I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,
Amen