16 They answered Joshua, “We will do whatever you command us, and we will go wherever you send us. 17 We will obey you just as we obeyed Moses. And may the Lord your God be with you as he was with Moses. 18 Anyone who rebels against your orders and does not obey your words and everything you command will be put to death. So be strong and courageous!”
Joshua 1:16-18
68 Simon Peter replied, “Lord, to whom would we go? You have the words that give eternal life. 69 We believe, and we know you are the Holy One of God.”
John 6:68-69
Dear God, I really like how the lectionary of many churches, including the Catholic church, will tie Old Testament passages to Gospel passages. In this case, tomorrow’s verses for the Catholic church include the verses above. There’s more to each one, but the ideas of these two sentences comparing the people’s response to Joshua’s, “Choose today whom you will serve,” with Peter’s response to Jesus’s, “Will you leave too?” is both touching and tragic. It’s touching because they believed these words with all their hearts when they said them. It’s tragic because they are all human and every one of them failed to live up to the words they spoke that day at some point or another.
Of course, I’m no different. My heart will exude with love and worship for you in one moment and then run and hide the next. When I started typing a few moments ago, I thought of the Rich Mullins song “Nothing is Beyond You,” which is based on part of Psalm 139. The first verse and chorus:
Where would I go? Where would I run? Even if I found the strength to fly. And if I rose on the wings of the dawn And crashed through the corners of the sky If I sailed past the edge of the sea Even if I made my bed in hell Still there you would find me Nothing is beyond you You stand beyond the reach Of my vain imagination My misguided piety The heavens stretch to hold you And deep calls out to deep Saying, "Nothing is beyond you!" Time cannot contain you You fill eternity Sin can never stain you Death has lost its sting And I cannot explain how You came to love me Except to say that Nothing is beyond you
Father, the good news is that my faithless heart is not beyond you. The Israelites’ faithless hearts were not beyond you. Peter’s faithless heart was not beyond you. Nothing is beyond you. I’m sorry I go. I’m sorry I run. I’m sorry I fly and sail away with everything I have sometimes. I am sorry I kick against you. I’m sorry I resist you. But in this moment now, I do worship you. Well, do I? Even as I sit here, I can tell my heart isn’t 100% yours. I’m holding back today. I have my agenda of what I want to do today and what I don’t want to do. I don’t want you to get in the way of that. No, even now, I am not totally yours. I’m sorry for that too. Holy Spirit, right now, I invite you to take over my heart and make me wholly the Father’s, the Son’s, and yours. I completely submit myself in this moment to you.
I offer this prayer and my life in Jesus and with the Holy Spirit,
Amen