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I post a blog of daily devotions that are my prayer journals based on scripture.

Solomon – 2 Samuel 12:13-25

04 Jul

Then David confessed to Nathan, “I have sinned against the Lord.” Nathan replied, “Yes, but the Lord has forgiven you, and you won’t die for this sin. Nevertheless, because you have shown utter contempt for the word of the Lord by doing this, your child will die.” After Nathan returned to his home, the Lord sent a deadly illness to the child of David and Uriah’s wife. David begged God to spare the child. He went without food and lay all night on the bare ground. The elders of his household pleaded with him to get up and eat with them, but he refused. Then on the seventh day the child died. David’s advisers were afraid to tell him. “He wouldn’t listen to reason while the child was ill,” they said. “What drastic thing will he do when we tell him the child is dead?” When David saw them whispering, he realized what had happened. “Is the child dead?” he asked. “Yes,” they replied, “he is dead.” Then David got up from the ground, washed himself, put on lotions, and changed his clothes. He went to the Tabernacle and worshiped the Lord. After that, he returned to the palace and was served food and ate. His advisers were amazed. “We don’t understand you,” they told him. “While the child was still living, you wept and refused to eat. But now that the child is dead, you have stopped your mourning and are eating again.” David replied, “I fasted and wept while the child was alive, for I said, ‘Perhaps the Lord will be gracious to me and let the child live.’ But why should I fast when he is dead? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him one day, but he cannot return to me.” Then David comforted Bathsheba, his wife, and slept with her. She became pregnant and gave birth to a son, and David named him Solomon. The Lord loved the child and sent word through Nathan the prophet that they should name him Jedidiah (which means “beloved of the Lord ”), as the Lord had commanded.
2 Samuel 12:13-25

Dear God, after yesterday’s prayer journal to you, I want to spend some time with Solomon. When I said his name to my wife this morning, she quoted the musical Hamilton and said, “Have it all lose it all.” But he never really lost everything. He just let evil take him over and became awful. I want to see if I can trace it and what I can learn from his life.

And so I am starting with his conception and birth. Born from the sin of David taking Bathsheba and killing her husband Uriah, if David had done things the right way then Solomon should never have been here. After I read this story this morning the thought occurred to me that I can see where people start to build a case for predestination. None of this should have happened, but it did and history took a turn.

I like the little detail in this story that David was comforting Bathsheba. We don’t often think about what this woman went through. She was, at best, taken by the king, or, at worst, raped by him. Then she got pregnant. Then her husband was killed. And then she lost the child. What a horrifying and overwhelming 12 months this must have been for her. Did she even want this new life? We just never spend any time thinking about her in this. We just think about David’s sin and his repentance (see Psalm 51).

So Solomon was born from a union that should never have been and an act of comfort for a distraught woman who had lost so much. Do you predestine things, or do you redeem them? I choose to think you redeem them. Knowing Solomon’s origin story also gives me the peace to know that you have made your plans beyond what my own sin affects, both the things I do and the things I fail to do.

I guess one thing I should add is that I am here today by your will. On paper, my parents should not have married. My mother was divorced. Should she have stayed with her first husband (I don’t think so). My dad chose her against his parents’ wishes. And yet here I am. I’m no Solomon, but I certainly owe my life to you. And my own son is here only because of a miscarriage before him. If that pregnancy hadn’t ended early he wouldn’t be here.

Father, help me to honor you today. You knew me before I was born. I am grateful for my knowledge of you and the opportunity to worship you, even as a Gentile. Please forgive me for the things I do and the things I fail to do. Redeem every action I take and bring glory to yourself through me.

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 4, 2019 in 1 Kings, Solomon

 

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Proverbs 14:34-35

03 Jul

Godliness makes a nation great, but sin is a disgrace to any people. A king rejoices in wise servants but is angry with those who disgrace him.
Proverbs 14:34-35

Dear God, some day I need to sit down and die a deep dive on Solomon. As I read this proverb, I had two initial thoughts. First, even though we are always told as children that there are things more important than money, that one issue seems to pretty much drive every election (at least the ones I’ve voted in since 1988). The second is I wonder at what point Solomon went off the rails. By the end of his life, he had a serious problem with women and was a cruel king and slave owner. When did he write this proverb? Did he recognize the sin in his life?

Of course, that leads me to myself. Do I recognize the sin in my own life? Do I have the self awareness I need to be able to hear the Holy Spirit when he tries to convict me? Do I recognize what you consider to be sin? Have I become watered down by society? Have I become “tolerant” in a negative way that hurts your kingdom?

Father, give me ears to hear and eyes to see. Help me to learn from Solomon. Granted, it’s not that I’m in a position of wealth and power like he was, but I am just as susceptible to hubris and arrogance. Help me to give the Holy Spirit enough room to really work in my heart and my life.

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 3, 2019 in Proverbs

 

Genesis 19:36-38

02 Jul

As a result, both of Lot’s daughters became pregnant by their own father. When the older daughter gave birth to a son, she named him Moab. He became the ancestor of the nation now known as the Moabites. When the younger daughter gave birth to a son, she named him Ben-ammi. He became the ancestor of the nation now known as the Ammonites.
Genesis 19:36-38

Dear God, this is one of those, “What?!?” stories. So you went to the trouble of saving Lot only to have his wife killed and then leaving him alone with these daughters, giving birth (literally) to the Ammonite and Moabite nations—future enemies of Abraham’s offspring?

You don’t give us a ton about Lot, but it’s interesting to me that this is how his story abruptly ends. Our last picture of him is of him falling victim to his daughters and fathering two nations. The end. So why did you even give us Lot’s story? I suppose there are a couple of good reasons.

1. We got to see how he made a seemingly smart decision that turned out foolish when he and Abraham split up the land.

2. We got to see the Sodom and Gomorrah story and learn about your disgust with debauchery.

3.) We got to see the result of his wife’s disobedience

4.) We learned the origins of the Moabites and Ammonites (although this information was probably more relevant to readers at the time this was written than it is to us).

Father, I don’t know where I’m going with all of this, but i suppose, at the end of the day, the story of Lot is a reminder about the importance of purity. It’s a reminder about the effects of one decision. I suppose this last story about Lot and his daughters is a reminder that isolation is not good. Yes, Lot had picked the wrong community before, but to take his girls and isolate them like that was a mistake as well. Being in community, so that I can both give to and receive from it is important. So help me to remember all of these lessons today as I try to follow you.

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 2, 2019 in Genesis

 

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Romans 12:3-5

01 Jul

Because of the privilege and authority God has given me, I give each of you this warning: Don’t think you are better than you really are. Be honest in your evaluation of yourselves, measuring yourselves by the faith God has given us. Just as our bodies have many parts and each part has a special function, so it is with Christ’s body. We are many parts of one body, and we all belong to each other.
Romans 12:3-5

Dear God, I think this is one of those lessons that we learn with age and experience. Although, I suppose we have to allow ourselves to be humble enough to learn the lesson. Probably the biggest temptation is to recognize that we need others to do things we can’t, and then letting it turn into seeing their contributions as inferior to ours.

I guess that part of our fallen nature is to see others as threats to our feelings about ourselves. Too often we see a zero sum gain in a situation and thing that if I elevate someone else in esteem in the eyes of others or my own eyes then I will be lowering the value I offer to the system and people will think less of me. I will think less of me. But the truth is that the people I look up to most are those who are the most respectful to others. They don’t need to gain at someone else’s expense.

Father, of course, the reason for all of this is so the you might use my life to bring the maximum glory to you in the eyes of others, and so that your kingdom will come and your will will be done to earth through me as one of your ambassadors. Please open my eyes to see how I might be going against these principles and hurting others.

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on July 1, 2019 in Romans

 

2 Peter 3:8-9

28 Jun

But you must not forget this one thing, dear friends: A day is like a thousand years to the Lord, and a thousand years is like a day. The Lord isn’t really being slow about his promise, as some people think. No, he is being patient for your sake. He does not want anyone to be destroyed, but wants everyone to repent.
2 Peter 3:8-9

Dear God, I’m learning more and more to wait on your timing. 32 years of experience with being a discipling Christian helps. Interestingly, as I look back, it feels like the first 25 years of that time set up my ability to learn the lesson over the last seven years. It was actually right at 10 years ago that things started to get harder than I knew what to do with. Then it was the next eight or so years of a valley that helped me to see beyond myself. I know there are more difficult circumstances and that the refining fire can be hotter than what I experienced. I’m just saying that it was as deep of a dark time as I’ve been through in my life and, in retrospect, I can say one of the things you taught me is that you are doing things I cannot see (and I might never see), but I need to trust that you are working all things for your best for the world, me, and those I love. I also need to understand that there is only so much you can do when dealing with the free will you grant us all.

So as I look around my life today, are there any areas where I’m being impatient with you? The good news, I think, is that I complain a lot less in my private prayers to you (but I confess I do still complain). The study I did of Job and then Paul, with Job’s learning that his life is yours and giving it to you without complaint is his duty, and Paul living out that principle by never complaining about his lot in life as he’s in prison, but “counting it all joy” instead, really helped me.

Father, what I’ve said this morning sounds arrogant and foolish. Please hear that I don’t think I’ve arrived. What I want to do is take these lessons I’ve learned and continuously apply them to my life so that I might be 1.) the best worshipper of you that I can be and 2.) living in the peace you have for me. Help me to be your ambassador, and, as I’ve prayed a lot lately, to be a catalyst for your kingdom coming and your will being done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on June 28, 2019 in 2 Peter

 

Matthew 16:24-27

27 Jun

Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must give up your own way, take up your cross, and follow me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it. And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul? Is anything worth more than your soul? For the Son of Man will come with his angels in the glory of his Father and will judge all people according to their deeds.
Matthew 16:24-27

Dear God, when my wife and I were praying together this morning, we talked about laying down our bitterness—the wrongs people have done to us that stick around in our minds. Forgiveness.

She told me about a great novel she read that, towards the end has one last argument between a husband and wife. The wife is pious but unforgiving and bitter. The husband is not pious at all. Just before he leaves to live alone for the rest of his life, he calls her on it. Paraphrasing: “I’m not pious, but you are. But you don’t forgive. What good will your piety do for you on the other side when you’ve never forgiven others?”

I think that feeds into this passage. “Give up your life for my sake.” That means giving up the hurt and the bitterness too. It means embracing the role you have for me to play in this world instead of caring about what role I have for me to play in this world. It means seeing another person’s offensive behavior for what it might be beneath the surface and disregarding how it impacted/impacts me. Not that I should allow myself to be abused. But once I’ve removed myself from the abusive situation, I think you call me to let go and prayerfully consider what actions you would have me take for that other person’s good.

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, please guide me. Teach me. Holy Spirit, pray for me. Pray for those who are on my heart as I type this out. And I also want to pray for the two people today I know who are experiencing memorial services/funerals for their loved ones. Please ease their pain. Comfort them. They are people of faith in you. Please meet them and strongly support them.

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on June 27, 2019 in Matthew

 

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Psalm 56:3-3; Job 40:6-14

25 Jun

When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?
Psalm 56:3-4

Dear God, this is one of those psalms that I don’t like to read because of you read this whole Psalm 56 in context it is one of those, “Kill all of my enemies,” psalms. Yeah, I’m not a big fan of that, although I can see where David would have these feelings come out of him when the Philistines had seized him in Gath. His life was threatened and he had enemies in ways that I never have and probably never will. So I’ll cut him some slack and just say that I don’t feel like the overall message of Psalm 56 is for me.

With that said, these two verses within the psalm are truth for me. The line, “what can mere mortals do to me?” strikes me this morning. What is the actual list? Starting with the most extreme:

  • They can kill me
  • They can arrest and torture me (my least favorite option)
  • They can do numbers 1 and 2 to my wife and/or children (my new least favorite option)
  • They can take away my job, money, home, reputation, etc.

Yes, there are things that can happen and they have happened to others including Job and Paul. But the lesson they taught in how to respond to that is worth learning. Better said, the lesson you taught through them is worth learning. I think it is summed up in this passage in Job:

Then the Lord spoke to Job out of the storm: “Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me. “Would you discredit my justice? Would you condemn me to justify yourself? Do you have an arm like God’s, and can your voice thunder like his? Then adorn yourself with glory and splendor, and clothe yourself in honor and majesty. Unleash the fury of your wrath, look at all who are proud and bring them low, look at all who are proud and humble them, crush the wicked where they stand. Bury them all in the dust together; shroud their faces in the grave. Then I myself will admit to you that your own right hand can save you.
Job 40:6-14

Father, help me to simply accept this day as you bring it to me. Love through me. Help me to not be needy, but to be at peace. I’ll take the road you have for me. Help me to walk it.

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on June 25, 2019 in Job, Psalms

 

Jeremiah 23:21-22

25 Jun

“I have not sent these prophets, yet they run around claiming to speak for me. I have given them no message, yet they go on prophesying. If they had stood before me and listened to me, they would have spoken my words, and they would have turned my people from their evil ways and deeds.
Jeremiah 23:21-22

Dear God, am I a false prophet? Sometimes I get my scripture for the day from Bible Gateway’s verse of the day. Today’s verse was actually verse 24, but when I went back to get the context for it the words in verses 21 and 22 really hit me. Do the things that I do turn people from their evil ways?

It seems like Paul wrestler with how this works with the New Covenant too (Galatians 4 and 5, for example). He would talk about freedom from the law, but then how that didn’t mean we just had a free pass to sin. When it comes to finding that line, I think I heard Andy Stanley put it well recently (I think it was him). He said something to the effect that you aren’t sitting up there giving us these rules to satisfy you, per se. They are for us. They are for our good. The evil we do hurts you because it hurts us and it hurts others. It hurts your creation and that evil/damage is something you can’t abide. Yes, the New Covenant includes an aspect of grace, but there is still damage being done.

Father, I’m a believer in the idea that the more I encourage someone into relationship with you and the more they dive into you the more the Holy Spirit will teach and convict them. I suppose my role is to be willing to call out the damage someone is doing to themselves through sin that I see in their life, but do it through love and concern. “Hey, I see you hurting yourself through this,” and that sort of thing. So give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on June 25, 2019 in Jeremiah

 

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2 Thessalonians 3:1-5

24 Jun

Finally, dear brothers and sisters, we ask you to pray for us. Pray that the Lord’s message will spread rapidly and be honored wherever it goes, just as when it came to you. Pray, too, that we will be rescued from wicked and evil people, for not everyone is a believer. But the Lord is faithful; he will strengthen you and guard you from the evil one. And we are confident in the Lord that you are doing and will continue to do the things we commanded you. May the Lord lead your hearts into a full understanding and expression of the love of God and the patient endurance that comes from Christ.
2 Thessalonians 3:1-5

Dear God, I think of two things when I read this. First, we are supposed to pray for things like blessing of the work you’ve called us to and protection from others. I probably don’t pray for specific things enough.

Second, the idea of having a “full understanding” and exuding an expression of your love, and then having patient endurance. I really like the phrase “patient endurance.”

I have several things happening today. I will address at least three groups throughout the day. While I am talking to all of them, I do pray that your Holy Spirit will completely fill me and express your love to those listening. One of my presentations is supposed to inspire people. One of them is to thank group of people and help them experience joy from their decision to partner with our group. And the third is to honor someone and give them a service award. The only way I will do justice to any of the three is if my heart is a complete expression of your love.

Father, please lead me into being all yours today. Help me to understand you a little better and worship you. Provide for what you know I need to be what you need me to be. Do it all for your glory and so that your will might be done on earth as it is in heaven.

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on June 24, 2019 in 2 Thessalonians

 

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1 Corinthians 11:23-26

23 Jun

23 For I received from the Lord what I also passed on to you: The Lord Jesus, on the night he was betrayed, took bread, 24 and when he had given thanks, he broke it and said, “This is my body, which is for you; do this in remembrance of me.” 25 In the same way, after supper he took the cup, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood; do this, whenever you drink it, in remembrance of me.” 26 For whenever you eat this bread and drink this cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death until he comes.
1 Corinthians 11:23-26

Dear God, why did Jesus leave us with what we call “The Last Supper” or “Eucharist”? Or I guess a better way to look at it would be to ask what would be different if he hadn’t said what he said and did what he did in the breaking of the bread and pouring of the wine on that last night before his crucifixion.

I discovered something interesting today. Well, maybe I knew it before, but if I did I’ve forgotten it. When wanting to see the recording of the last supper, I wanted to see how John portrayed the breaking of bread and pouring of wine in his gospel. He gives us chapters and chapters describing that last meal, starting in chapter 13. But much to my surprise, he didn’t mention it at all! That really surprised me. Why did he not think to include that part all those years later? Had he stopped doing the eucharist at that time in his life? I found it odd that something so important to the modern church was completely passed over (pun intended) by one of the core disciples/apostles.

But back to my question. What would be different if Jesus hadn’t left us with the eucharist? Well, let’s look at what Paul said: “For whenever you eat this bread and drink this cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death until he comes.” (Verse 26) Then in the subsequent verses he gets into the state of our hearts when we take the bread and wine, but I think this is the part that’s important. It makes me wonder if we didn’t regularly go through this act of physical remembrance of Jesus’s body being broken and his blood being spilled would we forget what he really did and just let his life morph into being of no more significance than the great prophets?

Father, help me to never water down the significance of Jesus’s sacrifice and the subsequent power he/you displayed through his resurrection. Help me to keep my heart pure and ready to participate in the eucharist whenever the opportunity presents itself to me. And help me to “proclaim [Jesus’s] death (and resurrection) until he comes.”

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

 
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Posted by on June 23, 2019 in 1 Corinthians

 

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