³⁰ The apostles returned to Jesus from their ministry tour and told him all they had done and taught. ³¹ Then Jesus said, “Let’s go off by ourselves to a quiet place and rest awhile.” He said this because there were so many people coming and going that Jesus and his apostles didn’t even have time to eat.

³² So they left by boat for a quiet place, where they could be alone. ³³ But many people recognized them and saw them leaving, and people from many towns ran ahead along the shore and got there ahead of them. ³⁴ Jesus saw the huge crowd as he stepped from the boat, and he had compassion on them because they were like sheep without a shepherd. So he began teaching them many things.

³⁵ Late in the afternoon his disciples came to him and said, “This is a remote place, and it’s already getting late. ³⁶ Send the crowds away so they can go to the nearby farms and villages and buy something to eat.”

³⁷ But Jesus said, “You feed them.”

“With what?” they asked. “We’d have to work for months to earn enough money to buy food for all these people!”

³⁸ “How much bread do you have?” he asked. “Go and find out.”

They came back and reported, “We have five loaves of bread and two fish.”

³⁹ Then Jesus told the disciples to have the people sit down in groups on the green grass. ⁴⁰ So they sat down in groups of fifty or a hundred.

⁴¹ Jesus took the five loaves and two fish, looked up toward heaven, and blessed them. Then, breaking the loaves into pieces, he kept giving the bread to the disciples so they could distribute it to the people. He also divided the fish for everyone to share. ⁴² They all ate as much as they wanted, ⁴³ and afterward, the disciples picked up twelve baskets of leftover bread and fish. ⁴⁴ A total of 5,000 men and their families were fed.

Mark 6:30-44

Dear God, I had two thoughts come to mind when I read this passage this morning. First, you “[taught] them many things.” (verse 34) If I had been there that day, what lessons would I have taken home with me? How would my life have changed for having been around you? I was watching a video clip of Paul Rudd the other day. He was with some other actors doing press for a movie, and the interviewer asked them if they could go back and meet someone in history who would it be. He said Jesus. He went on to explain that it was a real answer. To have the opportunity to be around someone who influenced the course of history and the world in such a way would be incredible. Well, these people did get to meet you when you were here in the flesh through the part of you that is Jesus. What lessons would I take from your teaching if I sat with you? I have to be frank. While it’s nice to sit with you in these times of prayer, talk to you, and read about you, it is much more comfortable having this veil between us. If someone told me that you, through Jesus, are in my living room right now, I would be reluctant to leave my study. I wouldn’t run. I might first get the nerve to peek my head out and get a look at you first, Oh, I would be so overwhelmed by your physical presence! I’ve gotten very used to this paradigm of you being invisible to my eyes. I don’t know how I would respond.

I got so lost in the that thought that I cannot even remember what my second one was. You are too much for me. You are too great for me. It’s interesting, because I simultaneously feel completely inadequate to be in your presence, and, at the same time, completely comfortable in the idea that you love me and want me anyway.

Father, there is a lot of work for me to do today. Help me to do it well. We have to make a big decision for our clinic regarding a contractor to do some work for us. Help us to choose wisely. To see beyond price. To understand something that we cannot see. Give us eyes to see and ears to hear. Thank you for bringing us this far. Help us to have your discernment as we continue down this road.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen