20 Early on Sunday morning, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene came to the tomb and found that the stone had been rolled away from the entrance. ² She ran and found Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one whom Jesus loved. She said, “They have taken the Lord’s body out of the tomb, and we don’t know where they have put him!”

³ Peter and the other disciple started out for the tomb. ⁴ They were both running, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first. ⁵ He stooped and looked in and saw the linen wrappings lying there, but he didn’t go in. ⁶ Then Simon Peter arrived and went inside. He also noticed the linen wrappings lying there, ⁷ while the cloth that had covered Jesus’ head was folded up and lying apart from the other wrappings. ⁸ Then the disciple who had reached the tomb first also went in, and he saw and believed— ⁹ for until then they still hadn’t understood the Scriptures that said Jesus must rise from the dead. ¹⁰ Then they went home.

John 20:1-10

Dear God, when I first read this passage this morning, I just wanted to spend some time in John’s head. I find the details he shares interesting.

1. He ran ahead of Peter. Normally, you would think they would have kind of run together, but John was younger, probably more fit, and capable of getting there faster. He didn’t care about waiting for the older Peter at that point. He just wanted to get there as fast as he could. No hinderances. No pacing himself. Just raw speed. He went from being terrified and hiding to full out running for the tomb. I want to spend some time with that in a minute.
2. When he got there he was still cautious. He just looked around before going in. I think this was a pattern for John: impulsive but cautious. He was the one who wanted to call down fire on the Samaritans. He was the one who as at the foot of the cross. So he was passionate. He wanted to be there to show Jesus love even though he had initially run away in the garden.
3. Peter rushes in. To me, this explains why Peter was the leader of the group. No, he wasn’t physically as fast as John, but when he got there he took charge. He went in. Then John followed Peter.
4. He doesn’t indicate what Peter was thinking in the tomb, but he reveals his own thoughts. He believed. He looked at the evidence. Linens that covered Jesus lying on the ground. The head coverings folded. If someone had taken the body they probably wouldn’t have wanted to take off the linens and reveal his body. And they wouldn’t have folded the head coverings.
5. The walk home. Did they even talk on the way back? What did they talk about? Were they trying to make sense of it all?

Now, where I want to spend my time is with John and his thoughts while he ran to the tomb. The information he gives us leading up to there is that Mary Magdalene came to him and Peter and said Jesus’s body had been taken. “They” took him. Who is “they?” The Romans, I presume. So that’s when they take out running.

Here are my thoughts on what might have been ignoring Peter’s slower pace and running to the tomb. First, I assume the previous 36 hours he’d been thinking about everything Jesus said, and was trying to find nuggets that would make sense of what he had experienced. Maybe some of Jesus’s mentions of suffering and dying and rising again were finally starting to gel and make sense. Could it be this was really happening. Could Jesus rise again? He’d seen him raise Jairus’s daughter, Lazarus, and the boy from the funeral procession. Could he raise himself? Or was it all over and he was disillusioned, having to come to grips with the humiliation of what Jesus’s death meant to the last three years of his life and his hopes of power and glory for the future. I think that any little piece he could think of while they were hiding during the Passover was running through his mind while his legs were running to the tomb.

Then he gets there and he’s ready to believe. He looked for evidence that would tell him Jesus was either taken or walked out on his own. The evidence he describes tells him Jesus walked out on his own. This isn’t over yet. Jesus is alive! What’s next?

Father, there are some things in my life that I’m tired of praying for. I’m a bit disillusioned on them. But if I got a sign of hope, I’d tear out of this house running as fast as I could. I’d break traffic laws. I’d do whatever I could for hope that is fatiguing and fading. But you call me to faith. You call me to hope. You call me to love. So I will have faith that you are moving, even when I cannot see it. Even when it’s Friday night. I will have hope because I believe Sunday is on the way. And I will continue to love because that is the greatest of these. Faith and hope are internal. Love is external. Love includes action. Help me to continue to take the love you give to me and turn it outward to others.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen