Dear God, my heart is incredibly heavy this morning. I learned some truths last night that I’m still trying to process. How could this have happened. To some extent, I think I feel let down by you as well, but I’m not sure. A couple of really important good things happened in the midst of all of the terrible. I don’t know. I apparently made a huge mistake that I prayed through at the time and since then. Did you lead me the wrong way? Did I not hear you correctly? I know I’m not the start of the current pain being experienced, but I now understand in a new way the role I played in contributing to it and making it greater. I know that anyone who reads these prayers I make to you doesn’t know what I’m talking about, and I have to keep this publicly vague to protect the privacy of others, but I didn’t want to not be transparent about the raw emotions I’m currently feeling.

With that said, I’m really hoping to find something in the scriptures that Sacred Invitation: Lenten Devotions Inspired by the Book of Common Prayer.

• AM Psalms – 97, 99, 100
• PM Psalms – 94, 95
• Jeremiah 17:19-27
• John 6:16-27
• Romans 7:13-25

Psalms 97, 99, 100 – After reading these three psalms together, the last line of Psalm 100 is what sticks with me (maybe because I was distracted while I was reading them): For the LORD is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations. Oh, LORD, please be good in my situation. Let your faithfulness continue through all generations.

Jeremiah 17:19-27 – I’ve tried to do better about having a day of rest when it comes to the Sabbath, but I could certainly be more intentional. But I also wonder how much this passage is about loving you and leading by example.

John 6:16-27 – The people wanted to know how you, Jesus, got to the other side, but you ignored that question and told them a truth about themselves. Holy Spirit, help me to ask the right questions and pursue the right answers.

Romans 7:13-25 – This whole thing about my sin nature, doing what I don’t want to do and not doing what I want to do . Yeah. I feel that.

Father, show me your path for me today. Please, show me your path.

I offer this to you in Jesus, and with the Holy Spirit,

Amen