24 The steward took the men into Joseph’s house, gave them water to wash their feet and provided fodder for their donkeys. 25 They prepared their gifts for Joseph’s arrival at noon, because they had heard that they were to eat there.
26 When Joseph came home, they presented to him the gifts they had brought into the house, and they bowed down before him to the ground. 27 He asked them how they were, and then he said, “How is your aged father you told me about? Is he still living?”
28 They replied, “Your servant our father is still alive and well.” And they bowed down, prostrating themselves before him.
29 As he looked about and saw his brother Benjamin, his own mother’s son, he asked, “Is this your youngest brother, the one you told me about?” And he said, “God be gracious to you, my son.” 30 Deeply moved at the sight of his brother, Joseph hurried out and looked for a place to weep. He went into his private room and wept there.
31 After he had washed his face, he came out and, controlling himself, said, “Serve the food.”
32 They served him by himself, the brothers by themselves, and the Egyptians who ate with him by themselves, because Egyptians could not eat with Hebrews, for that is detestable to Egyptians. 33 The men had been seated before him in the order of their ages, from the firstborn to the youngest; and they looked at each other in astonishment. 34 When portions were served to them from Joseph’s table, Benjamin’s portion was five times as much as anyone else’s. So they feasted and drank freely with him.
Dear God, a lot of times when I remember this story the only part I remember is that Joseph took the high road in two chapters and tells them that it is all okay because what they did was all part of your plan. But this chapter is careful to tell us how hard this was for Joseph. He doesn’t totally let them off of the hook for what they did to him. He scares them. He imprisons one of them. He threatens them. He deceives them with the silver. But it is almost like he is also giving them a chance to realize it is him, if only they will notice and recognize him. He seats them in the order in which they were born. He gives the innocent one among them five times the amount of food. He is begging them to notice. He can’t seem to help himself.
I appreciate what he will do in the next chapter. I wonder what he would have done with Benjamin if they had not passed his test and agreed to leave him there. I imagine as soon as they were gone he would have kept Benjamin as his brother (not a prisoner), sent for his father, and then imprisoned the other brothers. It can be so hard to be gracious in the face of abuse. It can be very hard to turn the other cheek.
Father, I do not feel abused, but I am facing a situation where I am having to fight for the rights of our organization. It can be hard to know where to draw the lines. Where do I push? Where do I show mercy? How do I live out your will for this situation in a way that will bring you glory and others into your deep presence? I don’t know the answers yet. Perhaps, like Joseph, I will be able to look back one day and see how you were working this for our good. But even if I can’t, I want you to know that I trust you deeply. I trust you with everything I have. Give me the peace that comes with that trust so that I can be the best representative of you that I can be.