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Daleth

²⁵ I lie in the dust;
    revive me by your word.
²⁶ I told you my plans, and you answered.
    Now teach me your decrees.
²⁷ Help me understand the meaning of your commandments,
    and I will meditate on your wonderful deeds.
²⁸ I weep with sorrow;
    encourage me by your word.
²⁹ Keep me from lying to myself;
    give me the privilege of knowing your instructions.
³⁰ I have chosen to be faithful;
    I have determined to live by your regulations.
³¹ I cling to your laws.
    Lord, don’t let me be put to shame!
³² I will pursue your commands,
    for you expand my understanding.

Psalm 119:25-32

Dear God, there is so much depth in this section of Psalm 119, I think what I want to do is break it up verse by verse and sit with each one.

• ²⁵ I lie in the dust; revive me by your word. – Whenever I try to do it myself I end up back at myself which leads to death. Just returning me to dust. Only your presence and relationship with you can lift me beyond my fallen humanity and into what you originally created me to be in Genesis 1. Fill me with your word. Your presence. Your Holy Spirit.
• ²⁶ I told you my plans, and you answered. Now teach me your decrees. – My plans must seem so silly to you. Even now, I have things I want to do and accomplish professionally as well as privately. I want to be part of the alumni group for Christian Men’s Life Skills. I want to grow the facility we are in and work to touch the depths of people’s lives and not just the surface. I could go on and on. I have these plans. But the truth is, I am so fragile and ignorant. I don’t know what the next moment holds, much less the next day, week, month, year, or decade. Help me to take my eyes off of my plans and help me to simply learn more of you and your decrees in this moment.
• ²⁷ Help me understand the meaning of your commandments, and I will meditate on your wonderful deeds. – I wonder what the psalmist meant by understanding the meaning of your commandments. I know where my head went. My head went to not just spouting off your laws and commandments at people and chastising them for not obeying you, but loving them through the meaning of your commandments. Don’t just say, “Don’t lie!” but instead talk to them about how the truth is good for them and lies harm them and others. The why. Don’t just say, “Take a Sabbath day!” but help them to understand the need for rest that you have baked into each of us. This goes into every issue the church faces today, including the LGBTQ issue. I’m frustrated with the American church in that it spouts off on the command and doesn’t seem to understand its why. When they do that, it just comes across as mean and judgmental. Help me to understand the meaning of your commandments.
• ²⁸ I weep with sorrow; encourage me by your word. – How did the psalmist understand the meaning of your word? For me, I am interpreting it as not only scripture, but the still small voice you use to speak to me within my soul as I spend time with you. It is the words of Christians who speak to me. It is what I read or listen to, both secular and spiritual. It is the discernment the Holy Spirit gives me as I take in the world around me. And there are times I weep with sorrow. Just two weeks ago, I was talking to my wife about a shared pain we both have, and I just started crying on her. Sorrow is in me. Help me to be comforted and encouraged by your word.
• ²⁹ Keep me from lying to myself; give me the privilege of knowing your instructions. – This is so good! Keep me from lying to myself. Powerful! Yes, I lie to myself. Sometimes, I take my own thoughts and agenda and ascribe your word to them and justify them as your will for me. Sometimes, I get defensive and self-righteous and tell myself that I’ve been wronged and I have rights that must seek justice. But in those moments I’m lying to myself. Teach me and help me to know your instructions.
• ³⁰ I have chosen to be faithful; I have determined to live by your regulations. – It almost seems like this verse should have come before the last one. I do choose faithfulness, but please help me to keep from lying to myself. And teach me to be disciplined to follow you.
• ³¹ I cling to your laws. Lord, don’t let me be put to shame! – Lord, if I am to be put to shame, let it be for clinging to your laws. If that is the shame I experience then I will gladly accept it. But help me to not let go of your laws and find shame down the path of my own sin. That’s what I desperately don’t want, but I don’t want it for your sake. I don’t want to bring shame upon you. While I’m thinking about it, give me mercy for those who do claim you but follow their own path into sin. Help me to know how to help them and love them back into you.
• ³² I will pursue your commands, for you expand my understanding. – I need you. The only way I can make my small, small, small life count for the few year I have on this earth is to lean into you, get to know you and become like you as much as I can, and then let you use me how you will. But to do that, I need to not only pursue your commands, but I need to do it with the spirit of expanding my understanding of you and then letting that flow into the world around me.

Father, I got a lot out of that this morning. Thank you for this one section of this psalm. I might just go back and do the same thing, section by section, for this whole psalm on this vacation I’m currently on. Walk with me today. Walk with my wife and our friends today. Watch over and heal those I love. Not just physically, but mentally, emotionally, and spiritually as well.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen