³² Think back on those early days when you first learned about Christ. Remember how you remained faithful even though it meant terrible suffering. ³³ Sometimes you were exposed to public ridicule and were beaten, and sometimes you helped others who were suffering the same things. ³⁴ You suffered along with those who were thrown into jail, and when all you owned was taken from you, you accepted it with joy. You knew there were better things waiting for you that will last forever.

Hebrews 10:32-34

Dear God, I think I’ve prayed about this in this setting before, but I’m starting to lay out the sermon I’ll do on May 25 at a local church, and while I don’t know that I will use this passage, it has something that I’m noodling with in my head. The idea that we aren’t doing this for personal gain now or fire insurance later. It’s not about loving you so I don’t go to hell. I don’t wake up in the morning looking behind me and seeing you chasing me with the threat of hell. I’m here right now just to love you and experience the fruits of the Spirit being in communion with you grows in me. I guess in a way I’m being selfish, but it’s like I’m selfish in my love for my wife and the attention I pay to her. I do it because it brings me joy as well.

So what are the “better things waiting for [me] that will last forever”? Some would say that those words represent “heaven.” And to some extent, I suppose they are right, but they would be looking at it too narrowly. If all I had waiting for me was not burning but walking the streets of gold every day then that would be pretty shallow. No, I believe you have a richness for me both in the life I live now and the life that is to come. Worshipping you. Being in your realm. Having your characteristics grow in me. Feeling more love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control each day as I get to know you better. Having those fruits perfected in me on the other side of this world. Those are the “better things waiting for [me] that will last forever.

Father, I just want to simply stop this morning, worship you, bow down before you, and say that you’re my God. You’re altogether lovely, worthy, and wonderful to me. I’m here for whatever you have for me today. Help me to be the man you need me to be and face it in your humility and love.

I pray this in Jesus and with your Holy Spirit,

Amen