And as we live in God, our love grows more perfect. So we will not be afraid on the day of judgment, but we can face him with confidence because we live like Jesus here in this world.
1 John 4:17

Dear God, I think I’ll be scared on the day of judgment regardless. My wife and I were praying together last night. It was her turn and afterwards she apologized for not having a better, more focused prayer. I replied that, on a scale of 1-10, our best prayers are probably a 2, so a 1.8 prayer is just about as good. Taking that logic, if on my best, most faithful, worshipful day, my love is a 2 or 3… well, let’s just say it will be all about your mercy that day and not about how great my love was.

With that being said, certainly, the better I love here the more peaceful my life is. I was talking to someone yesterday about the current problems in the world. I spoke to her the words I once heard Rich Mullins say in concert: “The world’s going to go the way the world’s going to go. So keep yourself pure and love everyone you can.” I can’t make an idol out of everything having to be the way I want it to be. I just have to submit to you and love. That’s all I really have anyway.

Father, all of this is fleeting. Our lives are like a vapor and I will eventually die and the memory of me and my life will fade. That’s okay. It will happen to all of us. On that day, all I ask is another question Rich Mullins asked in one of his songs: “Can I be with you? Can I be with you?”

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen