Be very careful, then, how you live —not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is. Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit, speaking to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
Ephesians 5:15-20

Dear God, I just can’t live an effective life when I have shame. That’s what I thought after I read this passage and then I went back and read the verses before this about darkness and the evil things being brought to light. There have been times in my life when I’ve been ashamed of my actions. I’ve felt the weight of that shame. I’ve felt the need to hide my deed and hope no one finds out. In fact, I still think about something I did when I was 18 that no one know about but you. I’m grateful you know. I’m grateful you forgive me.

It’s interesting he mentions alcohol here. I actually have a few different friends right now (four or five) who are in the middle of separations and divorce proceedings because of one spouse’s alcohol addiction. Isn’t it funny how nearly every story I hear about someone getting their life back together starts with, “I got sober/clean”? But there are certainly other things we can use to escape reality and avoid the responsibilities of life you’ve given us. TV. Religion/church. Meditation. I was talking with a provider in our clinic about a patient who is an absolute mess both physically and emotionally. She talks about you all of the time, but it’s like she’s invoking your name to just solve everything. In the line between living by faith and living in denial, she is way over the line into denial. Then I heard a story last night of a woman who’s obviously mentally ill. She had an accident going 120 mph through a red light without holding onto the wheel. She had her 11-yr-old with her. She told the officer she was testing her faith in you and she didn’t seem to have any regrets. Yes, mentally, she has crossed way over into the denial of reality and her responsibility in life.

Father, help me to identify anything that gets in the way of being truly filled by the Spirit and then doing the things the Spirit asks me to do. Help me to easily see the times when I cross the line between living by faith and living in denial. Just help me to be the man you need me to be, and forgive me for when I fail because I do fail, and I am sorry.

In Jesus’s name I pray,

Amen

In Jesu